life in the sunshine

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Cardinal flower, a wildflower that grows on the edges of the stream.

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This sort of thing made lovely “flour” in my outdoor kitchens growing up.

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The buds of a Cardinal Flower.

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Arrowhead, an aquatic wildflower, according to the nature guide, “Beneath the muck, rhizomes produce edible, starchy tubers, utilized by ducks and muskrats and know as “duck potatoes.”  Native Americans are said to have opened muskrat houses to get at their cache of tubers.”

I find this sort of thing utterly fascinating, do you?

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I was walking through the stream in my flip flops and noticed reflections of cardinal flowers.

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Checking on my three little human fishes.

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Goldenrod, with lots of little bugs on it.  “As suggested by their showy flowers, goldenrod are insect-pollinated.”  You can always see some neat insects on a goldenrod.

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Common Thread Waisted Wasp; more info here.

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Queen Anne’s lace is everywhere.  “it’s long, first year tap root can be cooked and eaten.”

hmmm, I should try it.

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Daisy Fleabane, “the common name fleabane originated from a belief that the dried flower heads of these plants could rid a dwelling of fleas.”

Perhaps I should decorate my cats with them.

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Cardinal flowers are pollinated by hummingbirds and I caught a glimpse of two tiny birds becoming territorial over them…..so I sat on a large rock and waited for one to come back.

It’s a photo that I never did get to take….they won in the “patience game”.

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I thought the shadows on my legs were pretty cool.

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You don’t see the hummingbird moth everyday.  They are so neat!

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Swallowtail butterfly.

The thing is, if you just slowly walk near tall wild grasses, through fields, through any wild place, or even in the city…look carefully at the leaves and flowers of any plant you see…it will be such a interesting experience for anyone.  I took most of these pictures within one hour of time, and I saw many more insects and birds that I wasn’t able to get photographs of; grasshoppers, hummingbirds, the caroline wren (a sweet little bird), and others.  Then, there are caterpillars, so many different ones, and all so interesting.

Yesterday the children and I walked around with Sarah’s little bug container and we caught a ladybug which she named Red, a small butterfly which she named Orange (it was….orange), and a grasshopper she named Grass.  We put a head of goldenrod in it.  It had such tiny black bugs on it that they were able to escape through the mesh of her container.  She kept these little pets for a couple hours, and then released them again.

“Out here you can hear the rhythmic hum of silence.  Listen, there’s music in the grass.”

I think the music comes from all the little insects and butterflies, and our hearts as we enjoy making wondrous discoveries.

Nature-Love (my board on pinterest)

little things

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The four older children are away at camp!

Suddenly, life has slowed way down.

Naturally, I started playing with my house, not unlike playing with a dollhouse only in real life proportions.

Ethan made the decorative shelf in 8th grade.  I put the things on top of it and they’ve been there for a very long time.  Because no one and I mean no one even thinks about redecorating a shelf when they’re super busy.

But I did it!  On Saturday evening when for some strange reason I felt physically lethargic and sad with the shock of losing four very active and time-consuming teens for a week, I had to do something, anything!  I redecorated the shelf.

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1. pinecone from Florida vacation  2. small old books  3. beaded frame with a picture of my brother and me from childhood  4.  small peacock fiesta canister with nothing in it (potential).  5.  a reading girl 6.  a light for her to read by  7.  small black photo book filled with my phone pictures  8.  wooden mushroom.

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Moving on to another surface.  The children decorated this one.

I wanted to take down the painting that Jacob did, but then I realized that the reason I hated it was because it had a thin piece of wood going down the exact center of the canvas, making it impossible to hang straight.  It’s always half a centimeter crooked!  I took a clear thumb tack and pushed it in the wall for the lower right corner to rest on.  It is now perfectly straight.

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I should have taken a “before” picture of the inside of the armoire.  Just imagine someone taking a big armful of papers, throwing them in, and shutting the doors.  After I was done with it on Saturday it was completely organized.

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1. a large basket full of photo albums  2. a tiny bear (whimsy)  3.  a box full of extra pens and pencils  4.  These red books are special to me.  My Grandmother had the whole set and I loved reading them when I was a little girl.  I still have one of the copies from her house.  The other three I have picked up from second hand stores.  The books are full of short stories and excerpted chapters of children’s books.  5.  Last but not least, an old jar full of pinecones from the woods by our house.

I love my ultra-busy life.  But this week, while I have the chance, I’m going to try to be more mindful.  Mindfulness is next to impossible for busy mothers.

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via pinterest.

“I suppose I am a sparrow.  A stay-at-home bird.”  Gladys Taber

another summer day

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Currently, Caleb and Seth are playing with the dog.  Sarah is pretending to be “an angel wolf named Angel but she doesn’t have any wings.”  Grace is getting ready for the dentist.

I woke up this morning at 6:30 and couldn’t sleep anymore.  I quietly opened the door to our bedroom and saw that there were no teenage boys sleeping on the couch.  How nice it was to be the first one up.  (Rich had already left for work).  I got out the thick yellow “Life is Good” mug and made a cup of coffee, ignoring the very messy kitchen.

I went outside with my cup.  One of the things I love to do is walk around looking at my gardens.

This summer has been such a joy.  I think I’ve mentioned this before, but with Sarah now five, my body has been free from the demands of pregnancy and nursing for 3 1/2 years now.  I feel better than I have in almost 20 years!  I loved being a mom of preschoolers so much and God’s grace has always been abundantly enough for that stage of life, but I’m still honestly thrilled to be moving out of those years….enjoying the seven children I have….and having a little extra time these days to enjoy other things, as well.

Nothing important, really, just quiet simple living.  Gardening, reading to myself and the kids, spending time with friends and family, learning more and more about Jesus and His life-freeing ways, stumbling along daily in need of His grace….free from guilt and condemnation.  Yes, it’s been a wonderful summer.

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My friend Alyssa is so good about joining her children in their activities and fun.  I thought of her when I went swimming in the pond yesterday.  Why don’t I jump in more often?  It’s not that I don’t like ponds….it’s just that I guess as MOM I feel like I’m better off on the sidelines as Watcher of the Children.  Of course, I’m not really the athletic type, either.  I’m just not.  I don’t like running or spending time deliberately exercising.  The only sport I ever really loved was gymnastics.  So I do continue to turn those cartwheels.  But I really do admire my running friends!  (and husband)

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The water was like bathwater on top.  I swam along the top of the water, noticing the little water bugs skimming along on their magic legs, smelling that pond smell that will always remind me of my childhood.

*A Little Walk*

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It was an Evening of Toads….during our walk we saw about 10 of them, all in various sizes.  The spring away quickly, making us laugh, but we always catch them and say hello.

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all those bare feet

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Pictures I Took This Morning While Drinking my Coffee

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I love this spot in my flower beds, especially the morning glories which are now in bloom just underneath the sunflowers.

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I’ve never grown a watermelon before.  It gets bigger every day, we (the whole family) love to look at it.  Pat it like a baby.  It’s going to be strange to eat it later on this summer.

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ANOTHER!

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Seth woke up.  And then I had a friend to walk with.

Together, we thought about how the older kids were going to camp soon, and the funny ways of our dear departed Billy-Cat, and then we saw our cat Sam.  We thought about church and I told him why I love to go.  (because I love to be around people who love Jesus just like I do)  He doesn’t like church because it’s too long.  We watered some of my plants together, made up silly songs, and he let me join him on the swing.  We saw a spider and watched it work on it’s web.  I thought of knitting needles and zip lining but the spider is an expert.

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Baby boy was holding a cat.  He said he’s not a baby.  But I said he was my baby.  “I’m not your baby anymore.”  Suddenly I felt like writing a sad country song.  I’m sure it would be a big hit.

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“Don’t wish me happiness.  I don’t expect to be happy all the time……it’s gotten beyond that somehow.  Wish me courage and strength and a sense of humor.  I will need them all.”  Anne Morrow Lindbergh

 

 

blessings all mine, with ten thousand beside

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For the beauty of the earth
for the glory of the skies
for the love that from our birth
over and around us lies
Lord of all to Thee we raise
this our song of grateful praise.

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Seth caught two tiny fish, and by tiny I mean approximately one centimeter and as thin as a wire.  One for him and one for his sister.  Sarah’s face says “oh, it’s so cute!!!” –painfully cute.  She loves babies.

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Good morning my friends.  Today is Monday.  It’s sunny outside and I just got home from taking my oldest daughter to her babysitting job.

My babies are six and five years old and are currently watching “The Boxcar Children” on netflix.  The rabbit is in the living room in her cage and Parker the dog is staring at the children as they eat breakfast…bread and cheese, blueberries and milk.  A breakfast inspired by their favorite story.

We finished reading the book on Saturday.

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I took three pages of notes at Bible study on Thursday, given by a dear older woman of faith who recently lost her beloved grown daughter.  Her heart spoke and filled my own heart and soul so that the tears flowed…..I read over her words in my journal and find so much truth and so much Jesus in them.

I thank God for her, please pray for His grace to continue to fill her as she grieves.

With her reminder, I kept an open heart and said “yes” to my husband more than usual this weekend.

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“I need fruit.  Do you want to go to Costco with me?”  yes
“Shan.  Let’s sneak down to the diner for breakfast together.”  yes

Those were two times I would have typically said “no”.  Costco is too far for fruit.  I’m too tired and just woke up and am not hungry enough for breakfast just yet.

Putting aside the excuses and selfishness meant more fun and closeness with this man of mine.

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My 17 year old’s morning hair.

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We went to the diner two times this weekend.  These are the times I will always remember.  When the children are grown and gone and we go to the diner again we will think of them always.  The laughter, teasing, spills, eyes too big for the tummies.

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The chicks have turned into chickens.

We spent several hours outside on the lawn Saturday afternoon.  With blankets, books, and towels we rested in the glorious sun…Rich and I…and whatever children came along.

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Samantha-Cat caught a frog.  I held it in my hand & it’s little body pressed anxiously into my palm.  I checked it all over and there were no mortal wounds — so back into the pond it went.

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The pretty-pretty beans are close to producing.  I’ve finally found little white flowers in the vines.  We’ve been eating peas and watching the watermelon grow bigger every day.  Tomatoes are beginning to ripen and sunflowers growing tall.

JR Miller quote and moments from my week

 

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WRITTEN BY JR MILLER:

We cannot do what we desire to do. Many of our purposes are thwarted. We desire to do good and beautiful things, and we try — but our actual achievements fall far below our desires. Our clumsy hands cannot fashion the loveliness which our hearts dream of. Our faltering weakness cannot do the brave things our souls aspire to do. No artist ever paints on his canvas — all the beauty of his ideal. No singer ever expresses — all the music which burns within him as he sings. No eloquent orator ever utters — all that he feels as he pleads for truth or for justice.

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So in all our life — we do only a little of what we strive to do. We set out in the morning with purposes of usefulness, of true living, of gentle-heartedness, of patience, of victoriousness; but in the evening we find only little fragments of these good intentions actually wrought out!

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But God’s plans and intentions are all carried out!  No power can withstand Him — or frustrate His will. It was in this thought, that Job found peace in his long, sore trial: all things were in God’s hands, and nothing could hinder His designs of love!  Our God is infinitely strong.  In all earthly confusions, strifes, and troubles — His hand moves, bringing good out of evil for those who trust in Him. He executes all His purposes of good. He is never hindered in blessing His children.

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“I know that You can do all things; no plan of Yours can be thwarted!” Job 42:2

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JR MILLER

Happy Friday, my friends!

what would the wise woman do?

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I ask myself this hypothetical question often, “What would the Wise Woman do?” and I asked it this morning after dropping a child off at school for a final exam.  I would have to return to the school after 2 hours to pick him back up.

I like to pretend that the wise woman is my Mom, my Grandma, or my dearest friend.  What would they tell me to do when faced with a certain decision?   Somehow it makes it easier to find the right thing to do when imagining what they would do.

I felt depleted physically and run down mentally, from days of rushed activity.  So I asked myself.

What would the wise woman do with two hours?

She would drive into town for a favorite drink and an apple juice for the preschooler, find a quiet table near the window and sit for as long as she wanted.

She would write a list of  thankfulness with a pen on a paper napkin.

She would say “yes” to walking to the empty park nearby.

She would lay back in the grass under a bright blue sky and let the hot sunshine melt away that sinus headache and listen to the birds and her little daughter singing as she played.

She would loiter everywhere she walked…slowly…taking everything in.

Sh would really taste that iced chai tea, down to the last drop.

That’s what the wise woman told me to do.  And that’s what I did.  Thank you, wise woman!

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“….but encourage one another daily, as long as it is called Today….”  Hebrews 3:13

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Over the last two days we have had four inches of rain.  This is good news considering the lawn was already turning brown and it’s only June 2.  It’s been so nice not to have to carry water to my flowers.

I’m sharing miscellaneous photos today, like the one of Grace’s rabbit, who was allowed to explore the outdoors for the first time a few weeks ago, with Grace nearby, keeping a sharp look out.

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I’ve been turning over lots of logs as we walk in the woods…we find lots of friendly little woodland creatures, mostly the large beetle many legged kinds, but sometimes we get to say hi to a lizard or two, they have the loveliest earthy homes.  So cozy.  And then I gently turn the logs back over for them.

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All the women in my family love wild lady slippers.

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water balloon fight on a very hot day

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Rich was on a business trip last week and I was at one of many little league games.  I watched the games and kept a casual eye on Seth and Sarah but at one point I couldn’t locate Seth.  I walked all over the place trying to find him.  I finally asked Dave, who was in the dugout at the time, if he had seen him…..and yes, it turned out he was up in the score box hanging out with the scorekeeper.  He’s wearing the bright green neon shirt in the picture.

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Much to my dismay, Mr.R, our neighbor whom Jacob works for, gave the boys a HUGE old TV to play with.  They took it apart this weekend and it was nice, after all, to see them busily doing a project.  There are now baggies of copper wire and what-not in my cupboard, and they very neatly put the pieces they didn’t want into the garbage.

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With Rich in my line of vision, and the three youngest in the pond, it was hard to concentrate on my book.

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Then the rest of the children marched by, on their way to what they call “the murder scene” far away in the woods…..Jacob, Emily, Grace, Zac, Ethan, and Dave.

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The new chickies are growing nicely.  They are now in the coop with the seven hens, which makes for a slight difficulty as I am very protective of the chicks and keep them shut in the coop tightly (all sorts of creatures love tender chick meat).  I go down in the morning to let the older chickens out to roam around.  Therefore, the hens can’t get back in as usual and have no where to lay their eggs and I don’t know what they are doing with them.

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Snickers smiling on the front steps.

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The late-bloom lilacs are blooming.  They smell divine.  I have a bouquet of them in the kitchen.

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Emily gave Sarah presents for her birthday.

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Time for Birthday Cake!  Will Parker the dog get some?  He looks so sad.

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Five candles

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We gave Sarah a scooter for her birthday and she loves it.

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She loves the little knee and elbow pads, and the little gloves.  We bought her a helmet, too, but when we went to put it on her we realized it had a crack in it already so we have to take it back.

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She took her scooter to David’s late game on Saturday night.  It was great fun watching her go all over the place on it.  The wheels light up as they turn, so it was especially exciting for her as it got darker outside.

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“Let us fix our eyes

on Jesus,

the author and perfecter of our faith.”

Hebrews 12:2

There is so much to be thankful for, especially the holy Spirit of God within our hearts, turning our dissatisfaction to contentment, our bitterness into love, our “poor me” attitudes into confidence and joy.  He gets all the glory forever and ever.  He makes all the difference..anything and everything that is beautiful is because of HIM alone.

You are loved.

 

 

i have a cheetah for a daughter. today is her birthday.

Sarah has been pretending to be a couple of different animals lately.

First she was a dog named Princess and I was her mother and our dog, Parker, was her father.

(She announces these things to me and then gets irritated when I can’t remember her name.)

Next it was, “Mom, I’m your cheetah and my name is Star.”

This last one has been going on for several days, I’m getting kind of used to her name being Star now.

I love how she naturally includes me in her land of make-believe, always.  Always her mother.

We took the kids out to dinner last night and then Rich wanted to go in the Apple store so I went into Gap Kids and came across the perfect shirt for my cheetah daughter named Star.

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Isn’t she beautiful?  Today is her birthday and now she is five years old.

The family baby is five!

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She also likes unicorns and tigers.