I have this post tagged, “first days” because I’ve been taking one special photograph for each first day of the new season. This one completes a set of four, starting with spring, then summer, fall and now this winter photo. It’s been fun to do. I love this picture of Caleb in the falling snow, and I used photobucket to add the quote to it. When you leave a comment, you will see the link for “firstdays” on the side of the page, if you would like to see the other photos.
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But wait! There’s more!
Yesterday did not turn out anything like I expected, no coziness whatsoever until AFTER ALL the children were in bed….it was just so busy here. I didn’t mention before, but I’ve got a cold. Just a simple, common cold. However, because I already use up 100% of my energy as a healthy person, the cold is making me loony. The house…..is a disaster. Jacob……is still sick. Rich……is also not feeling well.
I didn’t sleep very well last night, again. My cold makes me wake up, with my mouth as dry as paper. Drinking so much water means trips to the bathroom. I had to get up to eat a snack at 4:00am. My side of the bed is littered with tissues, all over the floor and nightstand.
Rich has things he needs to do this morning at church and so while he got ready to go, I got David and Caleb ready. I never did get a belt on David and I burst into TEARS when I saw him leave– hitching his pants up with one hand, while proudly holding the gift for his teacher in the other. His shoes were on the wrong feet, too. Why was I crying? Because of the whirlwind of stuff I had to do to get them out the door. I had the gift for Pastor, the gifts for all the teachers, I had to wrap the gifts that were for Ethan and Jacob’s gift exchange, and get the Christmas cards in Rich’s hand. The Christmas cards made me cry as well. I could not find the church directory so they are all BLANK. The envelopes are BLANK and the card inside is one of those picture cards with our names printed on….no handwritten message whatsoever. Rich said, “Aren’t we going to put the names on the front” and that’s what got me crying. So what do you think? Are my cards better than NOTHING? We have file folders in the fellowship hall and Rich can just pop one in each person’s folder, they don’t really NEED names….do they?
I have to battle against perfectionist tendencies. Everywhere I went this morning made me uptight. I ended up scrubbing the glass to the wood pellet stove door (David melted bits of marshmallow to it) until Rich told me to quit being silly. But, I like the glass spotless! I went upstairs to dress the boys and ended up putting away an entire laundry basket of their clothes while tripping over all four boys and getting two of them dressed. I had to get something from the bathroom and ended up windexing it because it was a mess…..and I haven’t gotten to the kitchen or my bedroom. The boy’s room downstairs made me angry because I wanted it cleaned spotless yesterday and it only got HALF DONE.
I just want to cry. I don’t feel good, I’m tired, my house is a mess, every where I look (well, everywhere except the wood pellet stove and the toilet seat and sink in the kid’s bathroom). Where are my merry little Christmas elves?
During the Christmas season, no matter how much I start ahead of time, I still end up in a rush which discourages me. Rich and the kids help out as much as they can but I do more than anyone around here, of course, and that’s okay but every once in a while it gets to be way. too. much. And I’m silly, because the more tired I am, the more demanding I am on myself. “I just can’t possibly get in bed unless I clean my room first and change the sheets!” (silly and loony)
So pray for me today. Pray that I will be able to ignore the things I should be doing and just rest. Jacob and Grace are here, but I have banished them to their rooms.
Thanks……
Love, your silly ol’ pal, ~Shanda
PS…you should see the snow coming down! Weather wise, it’s the perfect first day of winter! We’re in a snow-globe! I’m glad Rich has his big truck to drive today.