the comfort of God

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“A pond without dragonflies darting above it or without the exquisitely iridescent damsel flies clinging to the leaves of its border would be a lonely place indeed.” (this and all following nature quotes are by Anna Comstock)

Dragonflies are common at our place as we have two ponds and a stream.  It is always a pleasure to stand on the road and lean over the guardrail to peer into the water of the stream and watch the bright green bodied damsel flies, or to walk along the edge of the lawn where the tall grasses grow and observe the various dragonflies fluttering.  And it is always a feeling of accomplishment if I can get close enough to one with my camera and snap a clear photo.

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“The grasshopper has some means of defense as well as of escape; it can give a painful nip with its mandibles; and when seized, it emits copiously from the mouth a brownish liquid which is acrid and ill smelling.  This performance interests children who are won’t to seize the insect by its jumping legs and hold it up, commanding it to ‘chew tobacco'”.  

What delightful and beautiful insects grasshoppers are!   Watching them jump is highly amusing, their back legs are like springs.

When I look at this photo of a grasshopper, I am struck by an urge to try to draw it.

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This was an exciting surprise.  I was hunting the trees along the edge of the field for birds and my only thought was determination to take a pretty BIRD photo in the evening light.  And what do I see?  A tiny, chubby chipmunk way up high, frozen in fear as I photographed it.  Look at those tiny ears.

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“The lay of the bullfrog, which like the song of some noted opera singers, is more wonderful than musical; the boom of the bullfrog makes the earth fairly quake.”

Even the bullfrog is lovely with it’s green and brown skin and gorgeous round & golden eyes shinier and prettier than any marble.  You can see the sky reflected within it’s black iris.  The round circle to the right of the eye is the ear.  My sons love to catch bullfrogs and consider them friends of the pond.

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Notice anything special about this chicken?

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The hydrangeas are continuing to dazzle.

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Another surprise!  Just one week after seeing a baby chipmunk in a tree, I was sitting on the porch talking to my husband when my eyes landed on this one, way up high in the bush by our porch.

“While the chipmunk is a good runner and jumper, it is not so able a climber as is the red squirrel, and it naturally stays nearer the ground……a second glance showed me that it was a chipmunk lying close to the branch, hanging on for ‘dear life’ and with an attitude of extreme caution…”

So what was this chipmunk doing up in a bush?  I believe the answer was this:

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Kitty on the porch probably chased it up there.  And after giving up on the chipmunk ever coming down, went back to his cozy seat on the porch to take a bath.

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A chipmunk observer.

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The children played a game of catch over by the chicken coop.

 

 

 

 

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I had many real and imagined worries about the children and their future and by the end of the day yesterday I gathered my journal and my Bible to me like a lifeline…knowing that I needed most of all to saturate my mind with the truth of God, that He is in control of all things and that I can trust Him with my (His) children whom I love so much that I never want to let go of them or these days.

How Does God Comfort us?

Through His very nature, He is faithful.  “When you pass through the waters, I will be with you.”

Through His Word.  “I delight in your word every day.”

Through Prayer.  “Morning, noon and night I complain to you, Lord, and you always listen to me.  I rise before dawn and cry for help.”

Through His Holy Spirit.  “If we live by the Spirit, let us walk by the Spirit.”

Through others.  “Let us stir up each other to love and to good works.”

“I believe, Lord, that as I seek you I find you.  You will always show me the way that is good for my life,  You will lead me along the right way and I know that you always love me.  You pour your love into my heart so that I praise you because of your faithfulness; my innermost being says ‘thank you.’ Through the cross of Christ I have been brought back to you:  how I praise you!  Through the cross my life is transformed.  For Jesus Christ’s resurrection and for my new life I praise you.”

From a little booklet published in 1985 by Gospel Light Publications, “Enjoying God who Comforts”

lemon cupcakes

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We used the spray-on sunscreen.  I used it on David and I laughed hysterically yesterday when Rich showed me this picture he took of Dave’s back yesterday at the track:

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I honestly thought I had covered him entirely!

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On the fourth of July Rich took the kids to the playground so he could go running.  I made macaroni salad (amish recipe) and looked forward to grilling for dinner.

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I love our old-fashioned looking flag bunting for the porch and my dark blue hanging baskets.

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After they came home the boys wouldn’t let Seth on the trampoline and he was sad.  I was fine with it though because three boys on the trampoline is an accident waiting to happen.

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He was still pouting.  Some of us did manage to wear red/white/and blue.  🙂

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A good mama.

When it was time to start the grill Rich said “oh shoot, I’m out of charcoal” and I almost threw away the meat.  He went to the store and eventually we did eat our grilled beef kabobs, baked beans, macaroni salad, cantaloupe, and spice cake.

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At our church those who are taking communion file up to the front to take the bread and then the cup, then going back to their seats to partake.  Those who don’t take it are left in the pew to try to work their positions in order to be the one sitting next to MOM when she returns……the boys were silent but determined and my communion cup was jostled so that most of it dumped on my chest and lap.   I just had to laugh because I know God understands how hard it is for me to stay focused in church these days, and He wants me to cherish the moments.  I was in constant thoughts with God, and knew He was enjoying my situation just as much as I was.  Rich took the picture after we had gotten back home.

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Abbie spend the weekend with Grace.  She is my sister’s oldest and the girls are one year apart, both born in November.  Cousins and best friends.

On Sunday I had such fun taking them out to Starbucks.

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And then shopping.

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We spent most of our time in Sephora…..

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They had a free mini makeover service and learned about conturing.

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I let them each pick one item as a gift from me to them.  Abbie chose purple mascara.  “Do you think my Mom will let me wear it?”  “Well, if not you could at least wear it at home!” And Grace picked out a new eye-liner pencil.  I treated myself to a new lipstick.

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Later that night they made lemon cupcakes and served me in bed while I was reading my latest book, Cold Mountain.  Rich had one as well, as he read a book by Bill Piper (John Piper’s dad).

To be honest, I made Rich go out to the kitchen to get me a second one.  They were so good!

2/3 cup shortening
1 cup sugar
3 eggs
1 2/3 cups flour
1 1/2 teaspoons baking powder
1/2 teaspoon salt
2/3 cup milk
1 Tablespoon grated lemon peel

In a large bowl, cream shortening and sugar until light and fluffy.  Add eggs, one at a time, beating well after each addition.  Combine the flour, baking powder and salt; add to the creamed mixture alternately with milk, beating well after each addition.  Stir in lemon peel.

Bake in muffin cups at 350 for 20-24 minutes, and frost.

 

Rich woke me up at 2 in the morning yelling at the teenagers to go to bed.  The girls were running up and down the stairs and the boys were playing video games.  After which we had insomnia for over an hour.  We tossed and turned.  Ugh.

He’s at work now and I’m showered and dressed.  I’m leaving here in about an hour to take the kids to the one dollar movie at the mall.

I don’t want to end this post without sharing a sweet compliment that my husband gave me.  We were snuggling close in bed when he said, “Shan, I don’t ever remember a time in all the years we’ve been married that you’ve smelled bad.”

 

{this moment}

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I remember the first time we took baby Sarah to the ocean.  She crinkled up her eyes in disgust and would not put her hands down to touch the sand.

We took the children to the beach yesterday and five year old Sarah was busy enjoying herself the whole day long.  Digging in the sand, collecting every shell in sight, swimming even though the water was cold, playing with nearby little girls, twirling her new hula hoop.  We were there for six hours and she cried when we had to leave.

She loves the ocean.

grace’s new hair style

I’m sure you might feel the same as I do about Grace’s hair.

I loved it long, it was so beautiful.  She got several compliments on it from random strangers in the days leading up to her appointment.

But, she’s had long hair for years and she was feeling a desire for a change.  Also, her hair is fairly thin and to me it wasn’t looking as healthy as it used to.

She asked us if she could cut it and after thinking about it for at least a month or more, we agreed that it was time for her to chose a hair style and sit herself down in a hair salon.

Here is a “before” picture::

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(the determined look)

The sweetest part of this story is that her Dad took her to the spa to get it done.  She had to go twice, once for the cut and the second time for the color (done today) and he took her both times.  He also made her an appointment to get her nails painted, too.

(He makes most of my hair appointments for me, as well, and loves it when I pamper myself.  It’s one of the ways that he enjoys showing his love for his wife and daughters.)

He spent lots of money on her and then she came home and got upset about FISH!  But it’s Rich’s fault entirely.  You don’t buy 80 live silver shiners and then release them into the pond to get EATEN ALIVE by bass and catfish right in front of your tender hearted daughters and expect them to be happy about it.

We had to wait until after lunch cheered her up again before we could do our little photo shoot.

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The cut looks so cute on her and I love the subtle ombre.  She came up with this style on her own and it looks adorable.  She’s 15 and this is just the right time to say “yes” to harmless changes!

 

marvel: to be filled with wonder

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It was the perfect summer day full of small marvels.  Caleb went off with a fishing pole and his little sister followed him.  I was in the house with an illness….diagnosed as the “urge to clean”.  Eventually I worked it out and flew outdoors to try to clear the smell of bleach from my respiratory system.  Jacob and Ethan were cleaning the chicken coop.  I could hear Jacob happily whistling as he worked.  Caleb and Sarah were coming out of the woods and I walked to meet them.  They were on their way to see me with a present.

They had discovered a big, handsome wild mushroom.  They found it while they were looking for fishing bait.  I thought they were the sweetest children to think of me.  I went to get my camera so I could take a picture of it.   It was about 6 inches tall and weighed about 1.5 pounds.  We rarely see mushrooms this healthy.  The underneath was full of tunnels and I saw a glimpse of a very scared bug wondering how it’s large meal/home had been disturbed.

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While I was studying the mushroom under a pine tree, Seth brought over a toad.

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Then they began to fish.

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But they didn’t catch anything.  Caleb said he thought it was because the fish were not hungry.

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Many hours later the children were outside making a fort in the woods.  I went to go check on them and do a little spying.  First I admired my newly cleaned coop and checked on my chicks, all of which are growing up nicely.  They still make their peeping sounds and are about half grown.  We let them spend the day outside in their fence now and then.  It takes some work on our part because they don’t voluntarily go back into the coop at dusk and we have to catch them and/or retrieve them from trees.

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I found Sarah and Seth talking in the stream.  Seth had gotten a sliver in his foot and was soaking it in the water.

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We went over to see how the fort was coming along.  The children were busy chopping and gathering suitable sticks.  They worked on it until supper time.  I left them to it and went up to the field by myself.

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It is a wonderful place to see so many ordinary but (if you take a closer look) fascinating wild flowers and grasses, insects, butterflies, and birds.  This flower had heart shaped petals.  There was a bee on it with legs as golden as the flower, covered in pollen.

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This colorful insect that bore an uncanny resemblance to SpiderMan was on a milkweed plant.  As I bent to look closer, it scurried underneath the leaf of the milkweed to hide from me.  We played “chase” like this until I finally just slowly bent the plant over to take a picture.  It was fun.  Outsmarting an insect is so satisfying.  🙂

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The white spot on this moth (?) is actually shiny silver.  Look at it’s eyes and antennae.  (if you click on the photo you can see it bigger).

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There were the most gorgeous orange butterflies.  But they were hyper-active.  They never landed.  How on earth do butterflies manage to not rip their wings as they fly around?  I decided to ignore them but all throughout my walk one would catch my eye and I would grieve that I couldn’t possibly get a good picture.  This one was the best I could do.  Do you see it?  I showed the picture to Grace and we laughed and laughed.  Caleb said it looked like a flying slug.  (He was traumatized by a slug when he used one for bait that morning.  He could not get the slug slime off his hands and it bothered him for hours..another nature marvel).

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I almost saw a snake, too.  As I walked over to the stream, something dropped down to the ground to slither away…I didn’t see it…but the grass was slithering as it traveled away.  I’m sure it was a large snake.  For the rest of the walk there were imaginary snakes everywhere I went.  There is always an element of creepiness when one walks in fields of tall thick grasses and flowers.

In my mind, I looked like this in the field:

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Reality was quite different, but this is the cover of the book I am currently reading.  It is rocking my world.  I grew up reading the Little House books, in fact they were the first books I read myself as an 8 year old girl.  They are as known to me as my mother’s home cooked meals.

I found out yesterday that Pa GAVE JACK AWAY to the man who bought Pet and Patty!  He didn’t stay with Laura until he died like in the books!!!!!!!!!  They had another dog named Wolfie!!!!!!!!!!!!!   To find out more you’ll have to check the book out yourself.  Needless to say, I’m loving it while being mildly disturbed, and learning a lot about editing and writing one’s story as a piece of fiction based on truth.

 

waffle summer

This is fun.

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I love making breakfast for the children.  The best thing about summer vacation is that the extra time we have makes it possible to do so.  I’ve been making waffles.

I suppose it has something to do with the moment a few weeks back when my Mom and I were organizing my pantry and we discovered that one of the boys had put my waffle maker back with waffle stuck all over it.  It was shocking. I remembered the day years ago that Rich bought me that wonderful waffle maker from Williams and Sonoma.  I was so proud of it, but had forgotten how much I enjoyed it.  I immediately felt like nurturing my waffle maker again.  As soon as I had extra time again (days later), I took it outside and cleaned the crumbs out of it.  The dog was by my side, eating them out of the grass.  Waffle makers have the potential to be the filthiest appliance in the house if they aren’t perfectly cleaned after each use.  Even the cord itself was coated in old batter.  (I blame the boy who used it last.)

Of course once it was clean again I immediately wanted to use it.

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This morning I made cornmeal waffles from a Bed and Breakfast cookbook.  Before I mixed them up, I thinly sliced 2 quarts of strawberries into a fiesta bowl and sugared them.  The kids could put strawberries on their waffles, maple syrup, or both.

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Cornmeal Waffles
2 large eggs
1 3/4 cup milk
1 cup cornmeal
1/4 cup sugar
1 Tablespoon baking powder
1 teaspoon salt
6 Tablespoons melted butter

In a large bowl beat the eggs and add the milk.  In a separate bowl combine the dry ingredients and store into the egg mixture.  Gradually add the melted butter.  Spoon into a greased hot waffle iron, and bake.

Notes:  I use one of those silicone pastry brushes to grease my waffle maker.  Also, I added extra flour to this recipe because I like waffle batter to be thick.

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When I made them, only Caleb, Seth, and Sarah were awake.  So all the rest are waiting in a 200 degree oven, waiting for the big kids to wake up and eat them.  Last week we had someone spending the night with the boys and he was so amazed that I had made waffles from scratch that he took a picture of the recipe.

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(star wars and elsa)

I have something to say to you that has nothing to do with waffles!

God is Sovereign, is in perfect control of all things.
Jesus had harsh words for hypocrites.
Self-righteousness is a terrible attitude and scares people.
Strange and Unusual Joy is a mark of a Christian.
A key to a content life is purposefully living the one God gave you and enjoying each part of it.
Continuous study and learning…having a curiosity about life and living….is another way to grow in grace.
If you believe in the blessedness of marriage, put extra time and effort into your own.
At some point in the very near future all the children of God will experience the best happy ending in History….and I just cannot wait!!!!

“The LORD your God in your midst, the Mighty One, will save; He will rejoice over you with gladness, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing.”  

JR Miller quote and moments from my week

 

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WRITTEN BY JR MILLER:

We cannot do what we desire to do. Many of our purposes are thwarted. We desire to do good and beautiful things, and we try — but our actual achievements fall far below our desires. Our clumsy hands cannot fashion the loveliness which our hearts dream of. Our faltering weakness cannot do the brave things our souls aspire to do. No artist ever paints on his canvas — all the beauty of his ideal. No singer ever expresses — all the music which burns within him as he sings. No eloquent orator ever utters — all that he feels as he pleads for truth or for justice.

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So in all our life — we do only a little of what we strive to do. We set out in the morning with purposes of usefulness, of true living, of gentle-heartedness, of patience, of victoriousness; but in the evening we find only little fragments of these good intentions actually wrought out!

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But God’s plans and intentions are all carried out!  No power can withstand Him — or frustrate His will. It was in this thought, that Job found peace in his long, sore trial: all things were in God’s hands, and nothing could hinder His designs of love!  Our God is infinitely strong.  In all earthly confusions, strifes, and troubles — His hand moves, bringing good out of evil for those who trust in Him. He executes all His purposes of good. He is never hindered in blessing His children.

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“I know that You can do all things; no plan of Yours can be thwarted!” Job 42:2

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JR MILLER

Happy Friday, my friends!

yesterday……

…..we went to the park
…..Jacob and Ethan spent the day at a friend’s house
…..we took naps
…..we let the new flock of chickens go outside in their fence all day long
…..the kids swam in the pond
…..my kitty caught me a frog
…..I read my book
…..Rich spent the day at the park with work

and when he got home

he and the kids put together a new trampoline!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Daddy says life is such a crazy mess
He gotta jump on your chances for some happiness
We all see what daddy means
From way up here on this trampoline

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Rich is a quiet, orderly leader and teacher.  They had everything out of the boxes and lined up together.  The back of the truck had tools and the small pieces.  They played music from the truck radio as they worked.  It was a calm and pleasant work environment.

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Seth was begging me to play with him.  We played catch for quite a while.  Every time he had to chase the ball I did cartwheels.

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At one point Grace was busy with fitting the pipes together and Ethan was busy working on another section.  Emily and Jacob had nothing to do so they were fooling around….Grace reprimanded, “Why don’t you guys HELP ETHAN?”  There was a short pause before Emily retorted, “Why don’t we help YOU?”  Grace thought about it and said, “Point taken.”  The answer?  They don’t WANT HELP.

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The whole process took several hours.  At this point I was sitting on the back of the truck reading my book and keeping my eagle eye on them.  What a blessing to have a willing work crew.

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Almost done!

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Emily and Grace were the first to jump.  This was about 8pm last night.

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Then Caleb had a turn.

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This trampoline is a little smaller than our old one.  We had to take the old one down because we had it for so long it wasn’t as bouncy as it should be and the net was gone.  It was basically, in my humble mama’s opinion, an accident waiting to happen or perhaps even a death trap.  I begged Rich to take it down before Jacob’s party and he did…but he and the  kids were so sad that he ordered this new one the very same day.  It’s rectangle shaped and the net is secure all around the bottom, I can rest easy knowing that my babies are safe as they bounce.

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Are you guys patient mamas at the end of the day?  I had to walk away after this picture because I was going crazy telling them exactly how to take turns, nagging them not touch the foam on the pipes (knowing if everyone pulls on it, it will eventually tear and rip) or the blue fabric, breaking up petty arguments “Mom Seth said he can jump better than meeeeeeeee.” and so on…I went in the house and said I was too tired to be a referee and Rich agreed that it was best for them to learn to work things out on their own.  So then I happily yelled about everything going on it the house, “Who left this bowl of leftover salad on the counter I am not a kitchen maid????”  “Someone please take out the garbage and don’t put it on the ground BY the can this time, I had to pick trash up this morning because someone didn’t take the tiny next step to put it in the can!!!!!!!!!!”

I’m just saying, we do have our limits.

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The trampoline was a job well done.  Caleb just asked me what we were doing today and the answer is:  JUMP.

Rejoice in that day and leap for joy Luke 6:23