thank-full heart

“The way to find God’s treasure-house of blessing is to climb the ladder of His divine promises.  Those promises are the key that opens the door to the riches of God’s grace and favor.”

“He knows the way I take”  Job 23:10

Jacob, Emily, Sarah, and Mitch are sitting on one side of the couch with me, Grace, Rich, and Caleb are on the other side.  Ethan is on the loveseat with his legs stretched out, with bare feet.  Seth is wearing his Halloween costume, on the floor with a football.  The late afternoon football game is on TV.

We were supposed to have my entire family here for the Thanksgiving meal but I had to cancel a few days ago.  I haven’t been feeling well (depression) and with my brother Dave’s help, we decided to try for a quieter weekend….the love and understanding of my family did so much to humble and soften my anxious heart.

The thing about low points is that the spirit is more desperate and eager to SEE God, feel Him, know Him, want Him.  And he pops up everywhere, like even in the movie Sister Act 2 and Grace’s chorus performance at school, it’s a thrill.  He is everything, the only Rock-solid truth and the giver of so many good things.

Like family, doctors, medicine, warmth, a friend when you need one, animals, fresh air, etc……

“The end of the world is coming soon.  Therefore, be earnest and disciplined in your prayers.  Most important of all, continue to show deep love for each other, for love covers a multitude of sins.  Cheerfully share your home with those who need a meal or a place to stay.  God has given each of you a gift from his great variety of spiritual gifts.  Use them well to serve one another.  Do you have the give of speaking?  Then speak as though God himself were speaking through you.  Do you have the gift of helping others?  Do it with all the strength and energy that God supplies.  Then everything you do will bring glory to God through Jesus Christ.  All glory and power to him forever and ever!  Amen.”

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Grace and Sarah tore up the bread for stuffing.

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Jacob and Ethan caught up on mine craft pursuits.

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The weather was so nice today.  Caleb and Seth played catch a lot.

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I did a little reading in the sun with Parker the dog– (too) close.

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A favorite place to lay an egg.

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Loving kitty at my feet wanting some attention.

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Ice from the pond.

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Grace and I played yahtzee.

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Parker the dog snuggling with Grace.

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Rich went for a run at the school with his little ones so I could finish up the meal.

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The turkey was perfectly roasted within a Reynolds oven bag.

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for reals.

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So I bought this plastic silverware at Costco and it turned out to be see through.  We are easily amused.

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Ethan finally gets to sink into his favorite—-mashed potatoes.

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Rich read us a Bible passage and Seth left his place at the table to get up close.

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Our thanksgiving pies are on the piano bench.  😉

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Jacob went and got his Emily.

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watching the football game with Gentleman Gray

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Jacob and Emily did a little art.

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Grace, Mitch, Ethan, and David

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Sarah’s lego creation

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I hope you have had a wonderful Thanksgiving.

God knows, and provides our every need.

sarah and mama duet…piano and recorder

This is the most precious and adorable thing.  Sarah has been getting the recorder and playing along with me as I play hymns from the hymnbook.  I know without a doubt God loves it, too.  He loves Sarah and He loves a joyful “noise”……and I can’t help but smile big when I listen to her play.  I’m sure you won’t believe this but she’s never even had a music lesson!  And she’s only five years old!

The love of God is greater far
Than tongue or pen can ever tell;
It goes beyond the highest star,
And reaches to the lowest hell;
The guilty pair, bowed down with care,
God gave His Son to win;
His erring child He reconciled,
And pardoned from his sin.
Refrain:
Oh, love of God, how rich and pure!
How measureless and strong!
It shall forevermore endure—
The saints’ and angels’ song.

words by Frederick M. Lehman

teeth the color of cheese doodles

The most fascinating thing happened to me today.

I spent the entire morning in the house after Jacob left, cleaning and what-not, all alone.  Aunt Phyllis called and I talked to her for 40 minutes with no interruptions.  I wrote someone a card and mailed it and glued some of Joanna’s pictures into my scrapbook.  The house was so quiet.  I was in my own little world.

I ate lunch on the porch and read a chapter in my book.

Well then, I decided to go check on the chickens and I took my camera with me.

With all seven of the children gone away at school I was in awe and wonder at how much I could see, hear, and smell while I was enjoying the walk.  My senses were in tune with nature like they haven’t been in years.  While the children were home, even when I did go off for a walk alone, there was always that instinct to keep listening toward the house…to be ready to go back at any moment.  To not be gone too long.  A little guilt for not taking anyone along.

I went past the coop and stood under the trees on the edge of the yard.  It was a hot and buzzing time of day, approaching high noon.  The air was sweetly scented like grapes, ripe bunches of concord grapes were hanging from the trees.  I sat down and then stretched out flat on my back to close my eyes and listen, to relax, to let the sun bake into my face.  I was under some dappled shade, even with my eyes shut I could see movements of warm light as the wind blew through the leaves.

After a while I got up to continue walking……I admired some yellow wildflowers and smelled deeply of them.  I saw a grasshopper in the mowed yard, it had a hard time jumping off the clipped grass so I gave it a hand.  It used me as a springboard to jump amazingly far.

I was noticing everything I possibly could.

Then, as I walked up the dam trail, I thought to myself, “There are no animals.  All these trees and bushes and I can’t see any sign of life anywhere.”  I felt disappointed.  I wondered what walking through the woods was like long ago, did people see wild animals more often?  I’m sure they did.

I came to the top of the trail and stepped carefully over the mole tunnel which is always there.  Then, Jesus prompted me to look up.

And what do you think I saw?

I saw a black animal up in the top of a tree which was approximately 40 feet high.  It was slowly reaching out it’s little hand to pull some food to it’s mouth.  It was amazing, I had never seen such a thing before.  I usually see birds in trees and an occasional chipmunk.  My first thought was “raccoon” but a half a second later I knew I was mistaken, but what was it?  I kept watching, with my head tilted way back and my hand shading my eyes, then I realized that it was a porcupine.  My very first porcupine sighting but I had heard rumors of one about.

I say it is Ethan’s porcupine because just the other day he was on his way home from soccer practice and he saw one cross the road in front of the car and go down the bank by the stream.  He tried to get a picture of it but it looked like nothing but a dark dark shadow in it.

I’m sure the one I saw today was the same one.  I love it!  It appears full grown, healthy and strong.  My only hope is that 1. It does not like chickens, and 2. it stays away from our lawn, our children, and our dog.

I stood and watched it for a long time.  It did nothing but very slowly eat little bits of tree and then, after it noticed I was there, stare at me.  It stared at me in silence but when I broke the silence by talking conversationally he was so uncomfortable he looked away into the woods.  It never made a peep and didn’t move up or down the tree the entire time I was looking at it.

I took about 100 photos but because of the bright sun I wasn’t able to really see how they were turning out.

After a while I thought I better go home.  I didn’t have my iPhone with me and wondered what time it was.

I crossed the stream but didn’t see any crayfish.  My chickens saw me and clucked.

I walked by the pond and noticed some stuff under the playset and gathered a pair of socks, a water bottle and a plastic horse.

I walked up the hill to my house with my hands full of the stuff.  Parker the dog walked over to the front steps to greet me.

“I saw a Porcupine,” I told him, out loud as clear as day as I walked up the steps.

Then I noticed two men sitting at my little porch table and screamed bloody murder.   I’ll never forget the looks on their poor faces.  As they heard me talk to the dog, believing I was speaking to THEM, they looked at me in friendliness, and then as I screamed, I caused looks of surprise and shock to replace that kind friendliness.  “I was talking to the dog,” I explained.

They quickly told me that they were the granite guys coming to fix our countertop.  They had made an appointment before our vacation to come out on September 1 at noon.  It was one o’clock.  And I had completely forgotten.  One of them mentioned they were glad I didn’t have a gun or I probably would have shot them in my terror.  Thankfully, I only shoot photos.

Nicest guys though.  They just finished up.  I showed one of them the pictures I took of the porcupine, since he had overheard my conversation with the dog and all.  I’m not sure if he was as impressed with it as I was but he was very polite.

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This was the first picture I took of it, before I knew what it was.

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It was very high up in a tree.  Thank goodness I had a 55-200mm lens on my camera.

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It was thrilling to see these pictures inside the house.  While I was outside I never was able to see the eyes of this creature.  As you can see, he kept them on me at all times (except when I spoke and he looked away).

It looks quite like a rodent, doesn’t it?  That’s because it is from the rodent family.  It’s the second largest rodent in North American, behind the beaver.

I got this information from wikipedia, “The porcupine is the only native North American mammal with antibiotics in its skin. Those antibiotics prevent infection when a porcupine falls out of a tree and is stuck with its own quills upon hitting the ground. Porcupines fall out of trees fairly often because they are highly tempted by the tender buds and twigs at the ends of the branches.”

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It had teeth as orange as cheese doodles.  As I have always been interested in teeth and dentistry this was quite fascinating to me.  Imagine having orange teeth.  Looks to me like it has a slight underbite, as well.

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The kids should be home soon and I bet they’ll want to run right back to see if it’s still there.

 

camp week

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Rich came home as soon as the last event was over on Friday because he missed me so much.  Isn’t that the sweetest thing?  He came in our bedroom at about 2:30 in the morning and I laughed.  He thought it was the oddest reaction…but I was so happy and tickled that he came home.

We had all Saturday morning to talk.  He was full of stories.

One of the workers, Ting, posted a whole bunch of photos on Facebook and she gave me permission to post them.

The first one I posted is of Jacob and Ethan, on a day that they put the same socks on without knowing it.  Pink plus capes!

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This was a tug of war competition between my family and another family.  Jacob is at the end, then Dave, Grace, Ethan and Rich.  (they lost)

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I love this picture of Ethan S. (friend from church), husband Rich in the red cap, Zak right next to him (he spends a lot of time at our house, we met him at school last year because he  was on Rich’s wrestling team).  Zach with the red hair and his sister Allie (life long friends) and then my son Ethan in the white shirt, and our neighbor Emily (black shirt).  They look so happy.

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Rich said kids kept coming to join the picture.  Jacob (right next to his Dad), Emily (black shorts, light blue t-shirt) and Tessa (dark blue T-shirt).

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This is Rich preaching.  I had several people tell me that during one of his talks, he posted a picture of me and had to stop for a minute because he was choked up with emotion.  Jacob and Zak told me that it made them start to cry because, as Zak explained, “I had never seen you cry before and I was so confused.”  LOL

He loves me, my friends.  As I also love him and am proud of him.  He had such a good time and of course, as typical, came home with injuries from the sport events.  He has a huge scab on his leg and knee, and a broken finger.

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Micheal, who is Jacob’s best friend and is currently cleaning my kitchen, was an awesome addition to the camp leaders this year.  Rich said he did great and was like the camp bouncer and kept the kids in line, all in good nature and fun.  He arm wrestled Andrew and won….consequently they put him up against my husband on another night.  As soon as Rich heard the word “go” he slammed Mike’s arm down on the table so hard that Mike walked around with an ice pack the rest of the day.

“My arm was broken in half and remained broken in half for the remainder of the week.”  ~Mike

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Gary is our Pastor and one of the directors at the camp.  He’s amazing.

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Just like my  husband, he can sleep anytime anywhere, because he’s busy all the time and throws himself into every activity.

Rich took this video of Ethan’s skit.  You’ll have to watch it sideways but it’s totally worth it.  Ethan is wearing pink shorts, white shirt and BLUE bathing cap.  He does the lift at the end.

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Best of all is the worship, the moving of the Holy Spirit, Jesus finding lost souls and saving them….please pray that these teens will always remember what they learned and the love they felt.

The wind blows wherever it wants. Just as you can hear the wind but can’t tell where it comes from or where it is going, so you can’t explain how people are born of the Spirit.  John 3:8

dad with his five children

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Taste and see that the Lord is good: blessed is the man who takes refuge in him. Psalm 34:8

This picture was taken by Mom yesterday at Jacob’s graduation party.

It is a photo of our dear dad and his five offspring.  Isaac is the youngest in the green shirt, he was married a year ago to a wonderful girl and is Dad’s pride and joy.  I (Shanda) am in the green blouse and am his firstborn and possibly the favorite.  Next is David with the awesome beard, and Dad’s first son.  Dave is Dad’s steady and true right hand man and they can get each other laughing so hard.  Amanda is the third born, his little dimpled blond daughter with the happy personality.  She is also possibly the favorite.  Nathan is Dad’s fearless athlete, throwing himself into every sport, and life itself.  He is the Dad of two awesome kids, including a son named for our father.  GREGORY.  We love you, Dad!

Happy Father’s Day!

Be on your guard, stand firm in the faith; be men of courage; be strong.  1 Corinthians 16:13

how sarah got her bath

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I can’t sleep now.  Sarah’s taking a bath.

The weekend was full of ups and one very downish down.

First was the prom for Jacob and Ethan.

Then was a rare and lovely overnight visit from Rich’s Dad and step mom.  We went for walks, we had a campfire with hotdogs and marshmallows, we planted a family tree together, we went to the diner for breakfast.  We skipped church so we could soak up every minute and then waved goodbye as they drove slowly away on Sunday afternoon.

Monday morning I found out that the night before our dear Billy-Cat had been hit and killed in the road.  I went outside to where Jacob had lovingly put him and stroked his beautiful fur.  When I saw the ants I stumbled into the house.  Rich gathered me into his lap and held me as I sobbed.

We buried him where he lay and put a nice rock at the top for Jacob to paint Billy’s name on.  The children all grieved in their own way and losing our cat cast a melancholy mood on the whole day.

Later that morning we took them downtown for the Memorial Day parade.  Grace marched as a music student, David and Caleb, who looked like typical American Little League boys….fresh and energetic, marched with their baseball teams.

Sarah and Seth were so surprised when the candy started being thrown right at them by the parade marchers.

I wore sunglasses to hide the tears…tears for my cat, tears for loss, tears for all the nice people of our town who marched by us, throwing candy, the ones who serve us, the ones representing the sacrifices of the past.

Yesterday Rich left for work and I am home alone carrying the load of the family, not in my own strength, but by the grace of God.  Ethan had a game last night, Jacob threw a PR in Javelin during a big meet and won forth place despite an empty stomach, Seth had his very first concert performance, we were home and in bed later than usual.

This morning I got the kids to school, carried water to my plants, loaded the dishwasher.

There is a homemade card on the counter that Seth brought home, which is propped up against a vase of flowers.  In Kindergarten handwriting are the words, “I’m sorry Billy Cat died.”  It’s bothering all of us that it is there.

I’m tired.  Deep, deep tired.  I made a list of things that must be done today.  David has an orthodontist appointment at 1:30.  Ethan has a home game at 3:30 and it’s a big one so I need to be there.  David and Caleb need to be at their field by 5:30 and Jacob has to be at driving school at 6:15.  Grace is being inducted into the Thespian Society at 6.  I will do the best I can for my children….in the meantime….it’s only 9:30 in the morning……and I’m sleepy and don’t want to move.

Sarah took a break from playing and came to stand by me half an hour ago.  I was half asleep, arms and legs limp as I cuddled into the couch cushions.  She was trying to get me to turn on a movie.  When that didn’t work, she leaned in close and said, “Mom.  God said something to me last night.”

I perked up slightly.  These were the words of God.  I opened my eyes, ready to receive them.

“He told me that in the morning I needed to take a bath.”

I roused myself.

“Well, you had better obey.”

This is how Sarah got her bath this morning and how I have come to sit crossed legged on the floor of the bathroom to write this little story of living….

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Blessed be the name of the Lord from this time forth and forevermore!  Psalm 113:2

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O how He loves you and me, O how he loves you and me,
He gave His life, what more could He give?
O how He loves you, O how He loves me,
O how he loves you and me.

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“We planted a tree and it grew up,

While it reached for the sky and the sun. . . .”  Diane Muldrow

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“I used to take every new day for granted. Now I realize that each new day is a gift of God’s grace; and it is this day I need to focus on. It is full of possibilities – not just responsibilities – for relationships and for surprises.”

– R. Jack Hansen and Jerry P. Haas

greetings from the sick house

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Saturday.  Myriah’s last day with us.  Oh how we enjoyed having this beautiful girl stay with us during her spring break.  She fit right into the family…we had such fun.  My favorite memory of her visit was her genuine interest in our family photos.  We spent a cozy afternoon looking at hundreds of pictures together, she would take her phone out and take pictures of her favorites.

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Mitch brought Ethan home from baseball practice and the kids played some basketball together on the driveway.

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Sunday.  I was unfortunately coming down with the flu.  Remember how I wrote the other day about Grace being sick?  We took her to the docs again on Saturday and she was tested for flu and it was positive.  So that’s what we are dealing with here.  I have spent most of the last two days in bed.  Yesterday was  my personal first day of sickness and it wasn’t as bad as today has been….the weather was absolutely gorgeous so I ventured outside now and then.  I just had to see what the kids were up to.  Emily and Jacob were in their own little world in the canoe, determined to break up the last of the ice on the little pond.  I sat on the dock to watch and be amused.

Look who joined me after she woke up from her nap.

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She adores Emily and said to me, “Let’s just sit here and watch Emily until she gets back out of the boat.”  You know what else she did?  She asked me if she could make a wish with a rock.  I said no, only with a penny.  So when Emily did get back out of the boat, she gave Sarah a penny to throw in the pond to make a wish.  She wished for “a cat pet” of her own.  She is still wondering today when it will come true.

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Soon Ethan appeared.  He got his first phone on Saturday…. a rite of passage for today’s teen.

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Emily and Jacob moved to the other pond for more canoeing.

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I was thrilled when Rich pointed out this butterfly to me.  It was glorious to see, I love how it looks like it is truly edged in gold….and those beautiful blue spots along the wings.  So masterfully designed in every way.

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Seth played catch with anyone he could possible get to play with him.  At one point we had five children all playing…I had to move back out of fear of getting hit by the ball.

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This morning was rough.  After a terrible night’s sleep I got up to get some tea and almost passed out.  I broke out in a cold sweat, turned white, and was sick to my stomach.  Rich was getting ready for work and I asked him if he could please stay home….the children are on spring break and I didn’t know how I could care for them properly.  He graciously agreed and was able to take the boys to practice, go to the store, he bought the little boys a whiffle ball set which kept them busy outside….although I am sick it has been a wonderful day.  The best part of being temporarily sick is the blessing of slowing down.  Looking around the room.  Listening to the conversations. Having people come in to visit me.  Having the dog lay on the floor next to my bed, faithfully.  The cat giving itself a bath at my feet.  Reading a book.

The picture is something Grace drew for me today, I asked her to add a verse and now it’s by my side of the bed on my nightstand.  Along with all my drinks and vaseline for my dry lips.

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There is the nicest cat curled up at the end of the bed.

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Jacob is making dinner tonight; maple salmon and broccoli.  It smells so good.  The windows in my bedroom are all open for nice cool air.  The children have run wild today and it’s been so good for them to spend most of the day outside.  Seth crashed about half an hour ago on the couch, he’s sound asleep at Ethan’s feet.

Ethan’s getting sick now, poor boy.