by love possessed

 

l O V E

 

 

 

I am very tired at the moment, even my wrists are sleepy.  Rich is away.  Last night was the first night without him in quite a long time and I was very restless.  I woke up so many times and something weird also happened in the night.  One of our cats tried to open the door to my room.  I woke up to the doorknob rattling.  Thankfully, I wasn’t afraid, somehow I instantly knew the cat wanted to go outside so I stumbled through the dark to let him out.  It was 2:30. 

David is on a field trip today to the Trash Museum.  I’m not sure what that is yet, but I hope he tells me all about it when he gets home.  He and I bonded yesterday because I let him stay home from school just for the fun of it.  And fun, it was.  He’s such a great friend of mine.  He’s so dear, I can’t stand it.  David is our middle child, with two older brothers, and an older sister.  He also has two younger brothers, and one younger sister.  Neat, huh?  As the middle child, he gets to pick which sort of child he is for that day; older or younger.

Yesterday he was for sure an older child, as he was missing all his older siblings to follow around….it was just the two of us, and the little ones.  We went for a walk and he took this picture.

 

 

He took this one, too. 

 

 

 

I mentioned yesterday that we had lunch under the trampoline. The children were delighted with it.  We had pb and j, chips, and brownies.

A quiet moment, after lunching.  Sarah likes to dabble in the pond.

 

David and I read our books together on the couch during naptime.  It was cozy.  I told him I loved him, that I loved having him with me, and that I named him after my brother.  He smiled proudly and shyly.

He also got to do some wandering around outside all by himself.   I like to see him explore and play.

In the afternoon, during that time (hours after lunch) when you start to get a little hungry, David wanted pancakes.  I was involved in my book so I encouraged him to make them himself. 

Yesterday became The Day that David Made Pancakes for the First Time Ever

 

 

He used Ethan’s favorite recipe, which happens to be their Grandma’s.  He was so sweet, I put my book down to take a few pictures.  It was a good thing, too, because he almost put a tablespoon of salt in his batter, thinking it was a teaspoon.

 

 

 

He got the  idea to make pancakes because he found a Star Wars pancake mold in the toybox.

He added blueberries, (I always keep a bag of frozen ones in the freezer.)

David is unique out of all my children because he never uses maple syrup.  He likes his pancakes with just butter.

So, how did he like them?  He said they were yummy and tasted just like Ethan’s!

(yes, that’s a bruise on his forehead.  he had a minor playground accident)

 

I have some sad news.  One of my chicks died.  Not the one that Seth is holding here in the pictures, a diferent one, a fluffy yellow one.  It died instantly when Caleb sat on it.  Apparently, this particular chick was hiding in the hay next to the crate and Caleb didn’t see it, he sat on it.  Caleb was so heartbroken and weeped big tears.  I held him in my lap, which was hard because he is big, and wiped his tears away and told him it was just an accident and that I wasn’t mad.  He felt so sorry for the chick but after crying and being comforted he went on his merry way again, quiet, and somewhat stunned, but fine.

Jacob buried the chick and on the way to the baseball game last night, he told the rest of the children what happened.  “Woodchip!” David, cried.  “Poor Woodchip!”  For the name of the (now gone) chick, you see, was Woodchip.  The ride to the game was crazy, people, crazy.  I had 8 children with me.  My own seven, plus our friend Zach, who also plays ball and needed a ride. 

 

I had to leave the house this morning to take Seth for his check up.  I put on a pair of jeans, a blouse, and my high heeled wedge sandles that hurt my feet.  Then, I realized, I needed to let out my older hens and water them.  So that’s what I did.  I walked down, all dressed fancy, to take care of my farm chores.  While I was working,  I made a beautiful discovery that I want to show you.

In the middle of this group of bushes is a cold spring, it’s a miniature pond in there, but the banks drop steeply down, so much so that I often wonder when I will slip and pitch down into it.  This is where I get the chicken water.  I step down the bank, holding on to a thin tree trunk for dear life, and scoop the water out.  (I dream of a bucket tied to a rope, which would be more convenient).

Scattered around this water hole are wild rose bushes, so abundant around these parts that I really don’t even notice them anymore.

Which leads us to my discovery.

This morning, as I bent over the water, I saw hearts!  HEARTS floating on the top, drifting here and there…….

Hearts mean love.  LOVE.  I ran to get the camera.

It turns out, that the wild briar roses have hearts for petals.

“Today I wish for you, as I wish for myself, that when our authentic adventure comes to a close, we can also be remembered as being by love possessed.”  ~Sarah Ban Breathnach, from her book Simple Abundance  (I had just read this, a few hours earlier!)

Isn’t that neat?

 

Thankful for:

the oriole nest I discovered this morning

the smell of the damp woods, especially pine

bright, hot sunshine after days of clouds

early phone call from husband

trust in God (my Father)

Seth’s perfect health and the way he said, “Is it time for my hiccup?” (meaning, “check up”)

my bed, that I am going to go curl up in, right now

 

(((love))) Shanda

 

a quote

“Listen to your life;

see it for the fathomless mystery that it is.

In the boredom and pain of it no less than in the excitement and gladness:

touch, taste, smell your way to the holy and the hidden heart of it,

because in the last analysis,

all moments are key moments,

and life itself is grace.”

Frederick Buechner

 

We are having a nice day and hope you are, too.  Did anyone else eat lunch under a trampoline? 

a morning walk for three

As I sit here and gaze upon the photos I took yesterday,

I realize this particular morning walk wasn’t so much about the slow pace of travelling on foot with toddlers,

or the adorable pose he struck up there on the big stump.

Or the flowers we found.

It wasn’t about the weather.

Or her blond hair and blue eyes.

Or the way he took over the stroller and wouldn’t give it back.

It wasn’t about the bridge we came to.

Or the water that was under it

or the leaves we threw in it.

What the camera truly noticed on this day,

what it really loved,

was the shoes.

Her shoes.

Her adorable little size 6 shoes.

 

 

 

new chicks

 

 

“The art of being happy lies in the power of extracting happiness

 from common things.”  

 Henry Ward Beecher

This morning for breakfast, I put a pat of butter in a frying pan and waited for it to melt.  I reached into the fridge and choose two eggs with sage green shells that Grace gathered from the coop, just yesterday.  I put down two pieces of white bread into the toaster and cracked the eggs into the pool of hot butter, where they immedietly started sizzling.  At just the right time, I used a wooden spoon (because I couldn’t find my flipper) and turned the eggs.  Turning off the heat, I grabbed a (fiesta) plate from the cupboard, buttered my toast, and put it and the eggs on the plate.  The older children were all in school and the younger ones had already eaten.  I sat at the table a nd ate my eggs with the hot, crispy toast and remembered all the mornings my Mom made me this very same breakfast before school.  Eggs and toast are a comfort food for me.  A perfectly fried egg is something to be proud of.

I remember when Rich finally agreed to let me get chickens.  We had stopped at Agway for something and I sat in the car with the children while he ran in.  When he came out, he smiled and handed me a brochure through the open window, and told me that it was time to order chicks.  Everyone in the car heard my happy cries, as I realized I was finally going to live out one of my dreams; to have a flock of chickens!

That was three years ago now.  The chicks came in the late summer, and by that winter they were starting to lay.  We have enjoyed two and a half years of our own rich, beautiful eggs.  Each one is interesting, big or small, speckled or solid colored, and sometimes we even get a tiny egg. 

Through the years we have lost some of our original, first chickens.  One of our hens hatched out eggs (for a second flock) and we lost some of those new ones, too.  Right now we get about 5 eggs a day. 

Grace and I are hooked.  We will always have chickens now.  They add so much to life here at home.  We observe them, laugh at them, hold them, and enjoy their eggs.

A few months ago, I ordered twenty five more chicks.  Five each of five different varieties.  On the morning the Post Office called, Grace went down with me (at 6:30 am) to get our box of warm, peeping chicks.  The two of us brought them home and got them cozy in the garage, in a big crate.  We put down wood shavings, filled their water and food, and sat down to watch them.  We’ve been sitting out there every chance we could get, all weekend.

 

 

 

The chicks get sleepy under their red heat lamp.  We smile as we watch them sink into the straw, limp, and looking very peaceful.

Most of the time, they are busy eating and drinking (and growing).  We put food in empty food lids and they seem to like it better that way.  They gather around in a circle and get right into the dish so they can scratch backwards and eat.  I found a metal water ring at Agway, made to use with a mason jar.  Delightful.

Yesterday afternoon, Grace and I took nine of the chicks outside for a little while.  Although they are tiny, they knew just what to do; scratch and hunt for little tasty morsels.  One of them found a leaf and got chased by her sisters, who thought it was something good to eat.

 

We have five each of:

Ameraucana (blue or green eggs)

Lakenvelder (white or cream eggs)

Welsummer (dark brown eggs)  I am most excited about these.  I can’t wait to see the eggs.

Rhode Island Reds (brown)

New Hampshire Reds (brown)

 

We haven’t raised any poultry for meat, although we may in the future.  For now we are simply enjoying our chickens as pets and the wonderful egg producers that they are.

 

 

a sweet two

“But the child born on the Sabbath Day,
Is fair and wise and good and gay.”  ~ 1838 nursery rhyme

 

Sarah Joy was born on a Sunday morning. 

 

Back those two years ago, the last picture I took with my camera before taking *the next one of my newborn baby girl*, was of the newly bloomed peonies in the flower bed.  Forevermore, these lovely flowers will be, in my mind, “Sarah’s”. 

(@ just a few days old)

 

I purchased a few little gifts for her yesterday.  But, during Seth and Sarah’s naptime I got to thinking, how I would really like to make something for her.  I got out my sewing stuff and put together a pretty skirt, and even trimmed it with darling pink ric rac.  When I put it on her, I laughed and said, “You look like a princess!” 

I made it while she was sleeping, and consequently the length is a little off….however, I suppose this way she’ll get more wear out of it.

My mom bought her a vintage baby doll bed for her birthday, which she was very pleased about. 

We gave her little wrapped presents and watched her open them.  A few of her brothers got impatient, but I made them leave her alone.  She opened them all by herself.

Her lap of goodies.

 

We made her cake together.  It was delicious.  I found a recipe online for a strawberry cake and I baked it in a heart shaped pan.  We decorated it with homemade frosting (I used my own favorite recipe, instead of the allrecipe’s one) with bits of strawberries mixed in, & green and pink candies.

We sang a rousing rendition of HAPPY BIRTHDAY, and then dug in. 

Happy 2nd birthday to our wonderful little girl.  We love you, Sarah!

zoo day

 

 

Yesterday, on a hot New England day, Rich and I drove  the children to the Roger Williams Zoo in Rhode Island.  It took us about an hour and a half to get there, the perfect distance to put my feet up on the dash, read my book, hold hands with Rich, and listen to itunes on the radio.  I did get into trouble once, for nagging Rich about his driving.  But, after he confessed that he began the trip with the intention of driving the best he could and that I made him tense, I shut my mouth and just tried to look (and act) pretty.  

We wanted to visit the zoo for Caleb.  He is six and is very interested in snakes.  He had to write a paper on snakes for first grade, and that is how it all began.  Since then, he’s been checking out every book at the library that he could find on snakes.  He is starting to collect rubber snakes, because we won’t let him get a real one.  One morning he came to me with tears in his eyes and said, “Mom?  I feel so sorry for the milk snake, because people confuse it with the venomous coral snake…….and kill it!” (sob) I found him a “Snake Dictionary” and he knows all about each snake.  There are truly a great many different snakes out there in the big world, and some of them are (dare I say) quite lovely, too.  Caleb’s mind is like a sponge, soaking up all this information….but, he wants to see the real thing.  Books are not enough anymore, and he’s been begging us to take him to the zoo.

We saw the long necked giraffe.

The elephants were getting their bath.

We saw penguins.

And beautiful pink flamingos.

Then….finally…..the snakes.  Two Emerald Tree Boas to be exact.  Perhaps we missed something, but the anticipation of seeing a variety of snakes was great, and to see only one kind was  little teeny bit disappointing.  Good ol’ Caleb seemed to be fine with it, though.  It helped that we bought him a rubber snake at the gift shop.

We only lost track of family members once or twice.  No one cried.  We all enjoyed ourselves, and what’s better to wear on the skin than sticky stuff from little boy hands?  I can’t think of any perfume better than that.  It’s been 12 years since Jacob was Seth’s age and I’m so utterly grateful to have this three year old in my arms, or even, yes, running helter skelter away from me just like his four big brothers have done.  I’m still good at catching them and bringing them back.

Our Davy also loves the different animals and was thrilled to run around, looking at all of them.  He also had a thrill when he turned the crank to stamp an animal on a penny.

So sweet.  It really doesn’t take much to please a child.

We left the zoo, hot and happy.  On the way home we stopped at a chicken place for a late lunch.

Back at home, Caleb worked on his new snake coloring book. 

Rich went straight to the hammock and when he fell asleep, I took Sarah in my arms.

Under the late afternoon son, we went swimming, for me it was the first swim in our newly dug out pond.  I loved it, the children were amazed that I was swimming with them.  So was the cat.

 

When Rich woke up, he and the boys went to work on the yard.

They discovered turtle eggs in the topsoil that he had brought in from the quarry.

Perfectly round. 

I also made a discovery in my garden.

Green caterpillars all over in my lettuce.

I picked as many as I could off.

 

And threw them in with the chickens.  They were gone in about 5 seconds.

How do you keep caterpillars off your lettuce?

Happiness is a little bouquet of daisies, picked and brought to you from your own sweet boy.

Happiness is a red swimming suit, with white polka dots, drying on the line.

And, happiness is GETTING YOUR BRACES OFF!

 

Someone handsome just got handsomer, today!  I love his perfect smile, and Seth has been so funny about Jacob’s new teeth.  He keeps saying, “Let me see your smile, Jake!”  He doesn’t remember a Jacob without braces and he asked where they went.  The orthodontist sent Jacob home with a bag of candy, candy that had previously been off-limits when the braces were on.  And he got to sign his name to the wall in the office.  A very happy day for our Jacob.

 

 

It’s been a busy, fun-filled weekend.  So warm and muggy that I’ve been running into the bathroom now and then, just to splash cold water on my flushed cheeks.  

On Saturday, bright and early, my parents pulled into the driveway.  My heart leaps when I see them arrive, it’s always a great feeling to have them near.

We got right to visiting, all eleven of us.

After a while, Rich and Dad ran a few errands while Mom and I meandered around outside.

Sarah stayed with us the whole time, chattering in her little girlie ways.  We went for a walk so I could show Mom the biggest “Jack in the Pulpit” (wildflower) I ever saw.  We picked ferns and walked Jacob and Ethan to their weekend job at the neighbor’s.

Back inside, we puttered around in the kitchen and made Raspberry Rhubarb Jam.  Caleb showed Grandma his fun computer game. 

She was busy reading to Sarah Joy on the couch when I took this picture of our lovely jam.   Grace was busy writing her book.

After the men got back,Mom and I drove down town to the library and to a second-hand shop where she bought Sarah a darling wooden baby doll crib.  I purchased a few serving dishes for ice cream, pudding, or jello.  They had four at the shop, and Mom said she had the same dishes at home and she would give them to me.  I hope it all adds up to nine.

The little boys found this baby turtle down at the stream.  It was so tiny in my hands, but so perfect.  I wanted to keep it as a pet but we let it go.  I miss him.

I was working in the kitchen (again?) when Seth asked me to read to him so I said, “Go ask Grandpa to read it”.

I quickly popped my dinner in the oven so I could take a few pictures of the coziness.  I love listening to my Dad and Mom reading out loud to the children.  It brings back so many memories.  I also love the looks on their faces as they listen to another voice besides mama’s.

And I think sometimes Dad actually gets to read one that he hasn’t ever read before, even though he is now an old man (so he says, even though he’s a very young grandpa).  He always likes the stories …… maybe just as much as Seth.  “Wild Things” is a current favorite and Dad read it great.  Then, they read Jamberry.

Can it get any better than this?  Three of the most dear and special faces.  Yes, that is a big bump on Sethie’s forehead, alas, he hit his own self, with a metal baseball bat.

The crazy mama.

After a quick manicotti dinner, we all headed downtown to the Little League field.  Davy had a game and Grandma and Grandpa got to watch it.  He was just so thrilled about it all.

It is quite a shame, that I did not get a photo of the baseball player.  Such is life.  Oh well.

My two very favorite men.  

 

After the game, which did not end until 9:30-something PM, Mom and Dad headed back to their hotel.  They spent Sunday with my brother Isaac, and went home that afternoon.

 

These pictures are from Sunday morning, right before we went to church.

I simply A D O R E this one.   Caleb, Sarah, Dave, and Seth. 

 

And here I am, with my littlest one.

 

My weekend book….and the ever ready sunglasses.  It’s been so wonderfully sunny.

 

I can’t believe I even had time to read.

 

Rich and I went out on a quick date on Sunday afternoon.  On our way home, we saw a big bird and pulled over to take a picture.  We were laughing as we tried to get the best possible angle, passing the camera back and forth, as cars were passing us and quite possibly wondering what the two oddballs were doing?!

This was the best one.  An oriole was flying around, making noise and I hoped that the big bird wasn’t trying to vandalize it’s nest.  There were clearly some issues going on.

 

Today was a zoo day, pond day, and yard work day.  I took some photos but those will be shared at another time.

 

Thanking God for this beautiful life and for my lovely friends, like you.  heart