we had a situation

It all began on Saturday.  Rich and I drove in separate vehicles to the church to pick up a whole bunch of kids and their luggage from a week of camp.  After he greeted me and gave me a hug, Jacob told me that he and the older kids were going to get Chinese food with their friend Michael on the way home, so I gave him thirty dollars.  Rich left with his group of kids and I left with Seth and Sarah, not really knowing who was riding with Rich or Michael. It was past lunchtime and we were all very hungry.  I stopped at McDonald’s with my two kids, but Rich drove straight home with his.

I pulled into the driveway at home, went in the house, and discovered Ethan all distraught.  “There wasn’t anything to eat”.  I had assumed that he was part of the group going to the Chinese buffet.  He loved Chinese food but missed out because somehow he wasn’t told the plan.  I made him some elbow noodles and meat sauce but it just wasn’t the same.  He missed out on Chinese food and was never going to get over it.  “Oh E, I’ll take you to Chinese, just the two of us.”  I was willing to say anything to encourage him, but I didn’t mean that I would take him anytime soon.  Just that I would take him….eventually.

Soon everyone was fed and Chinese food was forgotten.

Or so I thought.

Yesterday, as typical on summer Mondays, I took Grace, Dave, Caleb, Seth, and Sarah to the movies, leaving Michael and the teenagers at home.  I had a lot to do so I left Grace with the little kids at the theater while I shopped at Target.  After the movie we stopped at Costco.  By the time we arrived home the whole back of my SUV was full of bags and food and I was tired.

I discovered all the teens sleeping on the couches in the living room but I took no pity on them and woke them up so they could unload the groceries.

To my surprise, they happily woke up because they said “We are going to the mall and getting Chinese food for lunch.”

“Oh no, you’re not!  I just gave you thirty dollars on Saturday!  And I just bought a bunch of food while I was out that you can have for lunch.”

They wouldn’t hear of it.  We went back and forth with our debate and meanwhile I was disappointed to come to the realization that my children are spoiled rotten.

Ethan especially wanted the Chinese food.  “Mom, you said I could go!”  He was still feeling left out from Saturday but the truth is, I never said WHEN he could go and I never said I would foot the bill for anyone else but Ethan.  I wasn’t about to give them anymore money.

Jacob put his shoes on and got his wallet.  He had money saved that he was supposed to be using for college.  “I’m going.  I’ll just pay for it with my savings.”

“Oh no, you’re not!”

The other point I made was that next week we would be leaving for family vacation and eating out all the time.  So in the meantime we were going to “stay home and be satisfied with common foods like peanut butter sandwiches.”

They hated peanut butter sandwiches.  They won’t eat them.

Yet another point was  “Jacob, you needed me to take you to college tomorrow, I don’t want you going to go to the city two days in a row.  You’re exhausted from camp and need to rest.”

But they still wouldn’t yield.

It was then that I knew I wasn’t dealing with spoiled rotten teens. I was dealing with over-tired, HUNGRY teens who had the stubbornness of both their mother and their father.

So I called Rich at work.  We had a parenting situation that needed both Mom and Dad to solve.  He promised to call right back when he had a minute to spare.

We were all in the living room:  Michael (who was to drive them to the mall and didn’t care either way, but did want to buy sandals), Ethan (lying on his back with his arm dramatically over his forehead), Emily (who was using her Starbucks gift card in the debates) and Jacob (on the verge of tears).

Rich returned my call.  I put him on speaker and placed the phone next to me on the arm of the couch.  He received an earful as everyone stated their case.  Being the wise and sensible man he was, he quickly decided in my favor.

“Your mom is right.  I want you children to stay home and rest today.  Jacob, if you don’t toughen up I’ll give you something to do to toughen you up.  Ethan, I want you to get in the kitchen and find something you DO want to eat, and make enough for everyone.

“Now, I really have to go.  I want to finish things up here at work so I can take a break and go eat Chinese food for lunch.”

(evil laughter from Mike and the parents)

Well, well, well.  I had “won” the great Chinese food debate against my teenagers.  I was feeling victorious but also sort of mean…..I love giving them anything they want….so when I DO have to put my foot down, I feel bad.  (yes, I am a feeler, it’s a blessing and a curse).  The poor children would have to forgo Chinese food, although we did have chicken patties in the freezer that they could shake soy sauce on.   This idea of mine was not met with approval, however.

I took my phone off the arm of the couch and just as I began to get up to put away the groceries Mike said, “The Schwan’s truck is here.”  He could see it pull in the driveway through the window.

Instantly, I started to scream because I knew they sold delicious Chinese food meal kits.  “Oh my word!!!   I cannot believe this!!  This is all the Lord’s doing.  You better get down on your knees and humble yourselves in gratitude!”

I opened the door to greet the man.  He never had such a warm welcome.  I turned to make sure the kids were with me to order their beloved Chinese foods from the catalog and saw Ethan kneeling in the kitchen with his arms raised to Jesus in grateful praise.

We had chicken lo mien and shrimp rolls for lunch.

camp week

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Rich came home as soon as the last event was over on Friday because he missed me so much.  Isn’t that the sweetest thing?  He came in our bedroom at about 2:30 in the morning and I laughed.  He thought it was the oddest reaction…but I was so happy and tickled that he came home.

We had all Saturday morning to talk.  He was full of stories.

One of the workers, Ting, posted a whole bunch of photos on Facebook and she gave me permission to post them.

The first one I posted is of Jacob and Ethan, on a day that they put the same socks on without knowing it.  Pink plus capes!

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This was a tug of war competition between my family and another family.  Jacob is at the end, then Dave, Grace, Ethan and Rich.  (they lost)

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I love this picture of Ethan S. (friend from church), husband Rich in the red cap, Zak right next to him (he spends a lot of time at our house, we met him at school last year because he  was on Rich’s wrestling team).  Zach with the red hair and his sister Allie (life long friends) and then my son Ethan in the white shirt, and our neighbor Emily (black shirt).  They look so happy.

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Rich said kids kept coming to join the picture.  Jacob (right next to his Dad), Emily (black shorts, light blue t-shirt) and Tessa (dark blue T-shirt).

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This is Rich preaching.  I had several people tell me that during one of his talks, he posted a picture of me and had to stop for a minute because he was choked up with emotion.  Jacob and Zak told me that it made them start to cry because, as Zak explained, “I had never seen you cry before and I was so confused.”  LOL

He loves me, my friends.  As I also love him and am proud of him.  He had such a good time and of course, as typical, came home with injuries from the sport events.  He has a huge scab on his leg and knee, and a broken finger.

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Micheal, who is Jacob’s best friend and is currently cleaning my kitchen, was an awesome addition to the camp leaders this year.  Rich said he did great and was like the camp bouncer and kept the kids in line, all in good nature and fun.  He arm wrestled Andrew and won….consequently they put him up against my husband on another night.  As soon as Rich heard the word “go” he slammed Mike’s arm down on the table so hard that Mike walked around with an ice pack the rest of the day.

“My arm was broken in half and remained broken in half for the remainder of the week.”  ~Mike

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Gary is our Pastor and one of the directors at the camp.  He’s amazing.

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Just like my  husband, he can sleep anytime anywhere, because he’s busy all the time and throws himself into every activity.

Rich took this video of Ethan’s skit.  You’ll have to watch it sideways but it’s totally worth it.  Ethan is wearing pink shorts, white shirt and BLUE bathing cap.  He does the lift at the end.

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Best of all is the worship, the moving of the Holy Spirit, Jesus finding lost souls and saving them….please pray that these teens will always remember what they learned and the love they felt.

The wind blows wherever it wants. Just as you can hear the wind but can’t tell where it comes from or where it is going, so you can’t explain how people are born of the Spirit.  John 3:8

no charmed life, but many charmed moments

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“Not a day goes by that I don’t still need to remind myself that my life is not just what’s handed to me, nor is it my list of obligations, my accomplishments or failures, or what my family is up to, but rather it is what I choose, day in and day out, to make of it all. When I am able simply to be with things as they are, able to accept the day’s challenges without judging, reaching, or wishing for something else, I feel as if I am receiving the privilege, coming a step closer to being myself.  It’s when I get lost in the day’s details, or so caught up in worries about what might be, that I miss the beauty of what is.”  Katrina Kenison

Today I decide to walk around with my camera to see what I am most grateful for.

Seth sneaks up behind me to steal a hug and as I turn to put my arm around him I catch our reflection in the mirror.  I feel his smooth skin under my hand and see how dark he’s gotten this summer spending so much time outside, just like mine used to when I was small.

Later on, I crop my head out of the photo because I don’t like the way I look, I am ashamed of my double chin and poor posture and can’t bear to leave the photo the way it is.

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He sees what I am doing and makes a face.  He has football practice later and has to rest for a little while so I leave him cuddling up into my down comforter.   Soon he is sound asleep.

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My friend Joanna sends me a letter with photographs that she has taken.  I love seeing her handwriting on the pages.  I am thankful for the last 20 years of writing back and forth with my friend.  She sees beauty all around her and I spend time on my bed putting some of her beauty-pictures in a frame.

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Earlier in the morning I had opened up my Bible and read from Ezra about the time of the rebuilding of the temple in Jerusalem.  I read 1 Corinthians and out loud I read from Psalms.  Sarah listens, curled up with her head in my lap.  She wants Fruit Loops for breakfast.

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Later I spend time looking through old catalogues.  I am working on a piece of mail to send to my friend.  I tear out a couple of pages to send along with a note and an article.  As soon as I open the door to mail it I see my neighbor on the porch about to knock, so we sit down and visit for a while together.

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Our dogs have a playdate and we laugh at her dog meeting our rabbit.  We talk about our children and Caleb talks about Star Wars.  She says she will lend him the movies she has and he squeals with joy.

It’s a beautiful day and we keep seeing hummingbirds.

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I say goodbye to my neighbor and tuck Sarah into bed for her quiet time.  She doesn’t sleep, and I can hear her talking, singing, and making play sounds.  I love to hear them.  Soon she appears downstairs again and I take the coloring books and crayons out of the cupboard for her to draw with.

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I clean my bathroom.

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I go outside to see the gardens.  I have small gardens but they bring me so much joy.  After months of making vines and more vines, morning glory blossoms are starting to open.

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My cat Snickers sees me and comes over to rub against my legs.  I sit on the grass for a while and pet him.  His purrs are loud and there is fur floating around me and sticking to my lap.  I tell him he is my good kitty.  I pick him up and press my ear to his side to feel and hear him purring.

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We get the mail together; but the box is empty today.

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I see a peach with an open bruised spot on the side so I pick it.  The other side was smooth and clean so I took a bite.  I am surprised by the juicy taste of perfect peach and assume that they are ready to eat.  I pick three flawless looking peaches but when the children try to bite them they are too hard and I have to throw them away.

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I laugh when I see Sherlock.  He tries to get my attention.  I am thankful to have the time today to stroke his fur and show him I love him.

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“…there is no such thing as a charmed life, not for any of us, no matter where we live or how mindfully we attend to the tasks at hand. But there are charmed moments, all the time, in every life and in every day, if we are only awake enough to experience them when they come and wise enough to appreciate them.”  Katrina Kenison

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As I am blogging, the plumber comes to fix the dishwasher.  While he works, I put away my computer and fold the laundry.  I finish my cup of coffee and hang up a load of towels to dry on the clothesline.  Caleb works on a crossword puzzle and Sarah colors in her book.

The sun is shining but there are clouds, too,  and I can’t ignore the anticipation of knowing that my husband and teenagers will be coming home again tomorrow, after being away for a week.

I love these ordinary moments and days the most.

 

all the details

Yesterday I enjoyed a gift of a day with my three youngest children.  Caleb was given a free pass to Six Flags for reading at school and I thought it would be nice to take him, Seth, and Sarah while their older brothers and sister were away at camp.

As I sit here on my couch, cross legged, in my pajamas, I’m filled with gratitude for this lovely life, through Christ alone, that I am experiencing.  Each day is a gift.

Yes, there are tough days, yes there are lots of things I could complain about, yes I do complain and resort to survival sarcasm (sarcasm makes me laugh)…..for example….

The other night the boys had football practice and both of them needed help at the same time with their cleats, I was down on the floor in front of Seth, working on a stiff knot, while Caleb was saying Mom…Mom…Mom….I need some help here….Mom….

He could totally SEE what I was doing!  The frustration welled within me and I cried, “I’ll help you when I’m done with your brother!  Do you boys think I have four arms??”

Then I laughed all the way out the door because Caleb said in all seriousness.  “Mom.  You already said that.  Years ago.”

I laughed because I didn’t remember saying it, and I laughed because he remembered everything.  He said I wanted four arms:  “One to hold Sarah, one to hold Seth, one to hold your cup of coffee, and one to hold your book.”

On the way to Six Flags Caleb wanted to listen to music.  We like 93.1 (mix) but if it’s a song Caleb doesn’t approve of he switches it to 106.9 (K-LOVE, christian radio).  In all that switching, his favorite song came on, “Best day of my Life” by American Authors.  We sang loud.

On the way to Six Flags we passed Planned Parenthood and in the joy of taking a day off with my children, I imagined the souls of babies going up to heaven, my heart wept, I honked the horn encouragingly at the peaceful protestors who are typically there- this time it was two old ladies–simply standing on the sidewalk outside the office.  I said my own words to Jesus–I don’t want to say judgmental things, I don’t want to get upset or angry.  I’m sad, sad that our beloved women come to place where they believe abortion is the answer to a hard situation.  And when they are at their lowest, saddest times, their babies are being “harvested”.  It’s just incredibly wrong, a sadness deep down in my heart that will not go away that drives me to Jesus.   And I believe He is listening and answering.

On the way to Six Flags we stopped to say a quick hello to Aunt Amanda, who was looking sharp at work, who hugged her niece and nephews and talked with them.  As we left, I told the children, “Your Aunt Amanda is so sweet to you, she loves you so much and is always happy to see you.”  I want them to know, she is always there for them.

On the way to Six Flags (can you tell we were running a little early?) we stopped at Barnes and Nobles ONLY because *I wanted an iced Caramel Macchiato* and figured they could look at books as I ordered.  It was fun.  My kids are being raised on coffee that I drink, and books for all.

THEN we were on our way to the gates.  25 dollars to park!  161 for tickets!

At these prices we going to stay all day long to get our money’s worth.

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First up was the Merry-Go-Round and Sarah with her pigtails.

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She was wearing one earring backwards because for some reason one of the holes is constantly shutting…I couldn’t get the earring in but from the back.  I switched it around later (when she was getting dressed and her shirt pulled her earring out of her ear).  If I could go back in time, I would never have gotten her ears pierced until she was much older, like I did with Grace.

By the way, selfie sticks are not allowed at Six Flags.  I don’t have one, but thought the rule was interesting.  So you can see my arm holding out the phone in my sunglasses.  😉

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Caleb went on the bigger rides with Seth, who was mainly too small to go on them unless he was with an adult.  It was a little hard to let them go off, just the two of them, these are my youngest children and in my mind not old enough.  But they are.  And they did great.

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This is my favorite picture of the day.  The two of them returning from an exciting ride.

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We did some swimming, too.  They swim almost every day so we didn’t stay long.  They wanted to ride on the rides!

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Seth was exploding with crazy-JOY.  He expends twice as much energy as we do, I swear.  One time he was dancing and did a happy twirl as we walked along and fell down right on the pavement.  He showed me later his small scrape on his knee.  “It wasn’t funny, Mom.”

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The rides were shut down twice for weather issues.  There were dark clouds in the sky.  This ride opened and rain fell for about 10 minutes.  It was nice, actually, to have the park cleared out of some of the people who gave up and went home…..we stayed…getting our money’s worth, don’t you know.

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She was taking me to Frances.  (FRANCE!LOL)  “Mom, is Frances another planet?”

“No, but it is another country.”

“I’m going to take you to Frances!”

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I was lucky to take the picture in the split second that Seth looked normal!

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I bought them each a necklace that had their name on it.

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Adorable kids who have to check all day long to see if they are big enough.

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Caleb is my #5 child and feels more comfortable as a younger sibling.  But I have to say, and brag a little, that this boy of mine was a huge help to me all day long.  He led the way for us, knew the layout of the park quite naturally, and kept an eye on Seth and Sarah.  He took Seth along on the rides that Sarah could not go on….and did it all with a great attitude.

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Caleb was even brave enough to go on several rides alone.  Like the Thunderbolt!  He truly did miss his old siblings, though, and saved some of the scariest rides to go on with them someday.

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Toward the evening, Sarah began getting blisters and carrying her sandals, which is why they are on her arms in this “muscle” picture of my little superheroes.  🙂

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By the way, Seth lost his shorts when he changed into his swimming trunks, they got left behind someplace.  He wore his trunks the rest of the time.

I had to buy myself flip flops because my sneakers were soaked on the water-raft ride.

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What’s kind of sad is he has no clue who these creatures are.

“A Bunny and a Skunk” is what he said when I asked him.

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Sarah went on a few challenging, faster rides and I had to bribe her once.  I hated to do it, but she was crying and saying “I HAVE TO GO TO THE BATHROOM” just as we were at the front of the line.  And by that time I knew it was her coping mechanism and not true.  She had already survived the ride once and wanted to go on it again, but just at the last second she panicked.  I wasn’t going to let her.  So I told her I would get her “a big lollipop” when it was over.   She cried and had to go to the bathroom again at the Scrambler but we didn’t bribe her.  We just said she would be fine and she was.  She would cry until the ride started and then laugh the entire time.  Silly Brave Sarah.  She’s living life her way.

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The boys rode the Pandemonium.  “This is where I lost my hat last year” ~Caleb

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My gentle-souled son.

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Seth was leaping through this photo-attempt but we got it!

We left the park at 8:45 and headed home.  My little kids have proved to me that they are strong— and capable of having an entire day of nonstop fun without melt downs from exhaustion!  This is a milestone for my family.

I had to stop and get gas on the way home.  It was 9:30 by the time we pulled in the driveway and as soon as I got out of the car I ran to the chicken coop using the flashlight on my phone.  Thankfully, the chickens were all safe inside with no raccoons eating them, so I shut the windows and doors tightly and walked back to the house with two eggs in my pocket…..we had peanut butter sandwiches before bed, with promises of nice warm baths…tomorrow.

This morning I had a text message from my husband, telling me that our son David was saved at camp yesterday.  “my heart gives grateful praise”

Today should be a quieter day.  We’re going to have those baths, and watch a couple of movies.

Caleb is snuggling with the dog and I’m petting a rabbit.  Seth is still asleep!  And it’s after 8!  Now I know what to do to make his sleep extra–take him to Six flags for the day!

Happy Wednesday, friends!

life in the sunshine

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Cardinal flower, a wildflower that grows on the edges of the stream.

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This sort of thing made lovely “flour” in my outdoor kitchens growing up.

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The buds of a Cardinal Flower.

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Arrowhead, an aquatic wildflower, according to the nature guide, “Beneath the muck, rhizomes produce edible, starchy tubers, utilized by ducks and muskrats and know as “duck potatoes.”  Native Americans are said to have opened muskrat houses to get at their cache of tubers.”

I find this sort of thing utterly fascinating, do you?

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I was walking through the stream in my flip flops and noticed reflections of cardinal flowers.

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Checking on my three little human fishes.

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Goldenrod, with lots of little bugs on it.  “As suggested by their showy flowers, goldenrod are insect-pollinated.”  You can always see some neat insects on a goldenrod.

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Common Thread Waisted Wasp; more info here.

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Queen Anne’s lace is everywhere.  “it’s long, first year tap root can be cooked and eaten.”

hmmm, I should try it.

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Daisy Fleabane, “the common name fleabane originated from a belief that the dried flower heads of these plants could rid a dwelling of fleas.”

Perhaps I should decorate my cats with them.

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Cardinal flowers are pollinated by hummingbirds and I caught a glimpse of two tiny birds becoming territorial over them…..so I sat on a large rock and waited for one to come back.

It’s a photo that I never did get to take….they won in the “patience game”.

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I thought the shadows on my legs were pretty cool.

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You don’t see the hummingbird moth everyday.  They are so neat!

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Swallowtail butterfly.

The thing is, if you just slowly walk near tall wild grasses, through fields, through any wild place, or even in the city…look carefully at the leaves and flowers of any plant you see…it will be such a interesting experience for anyone.  I took most of these pictures within one hour of time, and I saw many more insects and birds that I wasn’t able to get photographs of; grasshoppers, hummingbirds, the caroline wren (a sweet little bird), and others.  Then, there are caterpillars, so many different ones, and all so interesting.

Yesterday the children and I walked around with Sarah’s little bug container and we caught a ladybug which she named Red, a small butterfly which she named Orange (it was….orange), and a grasshopper she named Grass.  We put a head of goldenrod in it.  It had such tiny black bugs on it that they were able to escape through the mesh of her container.  She kept these little pets for a couple hours, and then released them again.

“Out here you can hear the rhythmic hum of silence.  Listen, there’s music in the grass.”

I think the music comes from all the little insects and butterflies, and our hearts as we enjoy making wondrous discoveries.

Nature-Love (my board on pinterest)

little things

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The four older children are away at camp!

Suddenly, life has slowed way down.

Naturally, I started playing with my house, not unlike playing with a dollhouse only in real life proportions.

Ethan made the decorative shelf in 8th grade.  I put the things on top of it and they’ve been there for a very long time.  Because no one and I mean no one even thinks about redecorating a shelf when they’re super busy.

But I did it!  On Saturday evening when for some strange reason I felt physically lethargic and sad with the shock of losing four very active and time-consuming teens for a week, I had to do something, anything!  I redecorated the shelf.

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1. pinecone from Florida vacation  2. small old books  3. beaded frame with a picture of my brother and me from childhood  4.  small peacock fiesta canister with nothing in it (potential).  5.  a reading girl 6.  a light for her to read by  7.  small black photo book filled with my phone pictures  8.  wooden mushroom.

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Moving on to another surface.  The children decorated this one.

I wanted to take down the painting that Jacob did, but then I realized that the reason I hated it was because it had a thin piece of wood going down the exact center of the canvas, making it impossible to hang straight.  It’s always half a centimeter crooked!  I took a clear thumb tack and pushed it in the wall for the lower right corner to rest on.  It is now perfectly straight.

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I should have taken a “before” picture of the inside of the armoire.  Just imagine someone taking a big armful of papers, throwing them in, and shutting the doors.  After I was done with it on Saturday it was completely organized.

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1. a large basket full of photo albums  2. a tiny bear (whimsy)  3.  a box full of extra pens and pencils  4.  These red books are special to me.  My Grandmother had the whole set and I loved reading them when I was a little girl.  I still have one of the copies from her house.  The other three I have picked up from second hand stores.  The books are full of short stories and excerpted chapters of children’s books.  5.  Last but not least, an old jar full of pinecones from the woods by our house.

I love my ultra-busy life.  But this week, while I have the chance, I’m going to try to be more mindful.  Mindfulness is next to impossible for busy mothers.

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via pinterest.

“I suppose I am a sparrow.  A stay-at-home bird.”  Gladys Taber

another summer day

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Currently, Caleb and Seth are playing with the dog.  Sarah is pretending to be “an angel wolf named Angel but she doesn’t have any wings.”  Grace is getting ready for the dentist.

I woke up this morning at 6:30 and couldn’t sleep anymore.  I quietly opened the door to our bedroom and saw that there were no teenage boys sleeping on the couch.  How nice it was to be the first one up.  (Rich had already left for work).  I got out the thick yellow “Life is Good” mug and made a cup of coffee, ignoring the very messy kitchen.

I went outside with my cup.  One of the things I love to do is walk around looking at my gardens.

This summer has been such a joy.  I think I’ve mentioned this before, but with Sarah now five, my body has been free from the demands of pregnancy and nursing for 3 1/2 years now.  I feel better than I have in almost 20 years!  I loved being a mom of preschoolers so much and God’s grace has always been abundantly enough for that stage of life, but I’m still honestly thrilled to be moving out of those years….enjoying the seven children I have….and having a little extra time these days to enjoy other things, as well.

Nothing important, really, just quiet simple living.  Gardening, reading to myself and the kids, spending time with friends and family, learning more and more about Jesus and His life-freeing ways, stumbling along daily in need of His grace….free from guilt and condemnation.  Yes, it’s been a wonderful summer.

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My friend Alyssa is so good about joining her children in their activities and fun.  I thought of her when I went swimming in the pond yesterday.  Why don’t I jump in more often?  It’s not that I don’t like ponds….it’s just that I guess as MOM I feel like I’m better off on the sidelines as Watcher of the Children.  Of course, I’m not really the athletic type, either.  I’m just not.  I don’t like running or spending time deliberately exercising.  The only sport I ever really loved was gymnastics.  So I do continue to turn those cartwheels.  But I really do admire my running friends!  (and husband)

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The water was like bathwater on top.  I swam along the top of the water, noticing the little water bugs skimming along on their magic legs, smelling that pond smell that will always remind me of my childhood.

*A Little Walk*

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It was an Evening of Toads….during our walk we saw about 10 of them, all in various sizes.  The spring away quickly, making us laugh, but we always catch them and say hello.

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all those bare feet

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Pictures I Took This Morning While Drinking my Coffee

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I love this spot in my flower beds, especially the morning glories which are now in bloom just underneath the sunflowers.

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I’ve never grown a watermelon before.  It gets bigger every day, we (the whole family) love to look at it.  Pat it like a baby.  It’s going to be strange to eat it later on this summer.

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ANOTHER!

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basil

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Seth woke up.  And then I had a friend to walk with.

Together, we thought about how the older kids were going to camp soon, and the funny ways of our dear departed Billy-Cat, and then we saw our cat Sam.  We thought about church and I told him why I love to go.  (because I love to be around people who love Jesus just like I do)  He doesn’t like church because it’s too long.  We watered some of my plants together, made up silly songs, and he let me join him on the swing.  We saw a spider and watched it work on it’s web.  I thought of knitting needles and zip lining but the spider is an expert.

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Baby boy was holding a cat.  He said he’s not a baby.  But I said he was my baby.  “I’m not your baby anymore.”  Suddenly I felt like writing a sad country song.  I’m sure it would be a big hit.

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“Don’t wish me happiness.  I don’t expect to be happy all the time……it’s gotten beyond that somehow.  Wish me courage and strength and a sense of humor.  I will need them all.”  Anne Morrow Lindbergh

 

 

books, a carrot, friends, spiders, a flower, bugs, and gifts

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Yesterday the dollar movie was Diary of a Wimpy Kid Dog Days so I made the kids go in without me.  I walked the mall and went to Target.  While I was in Target I browsed the books and wrote the titles of some that looked interesting.  After the movie was over we went to Taco Bell and then to the library and I checked out all the books I had written down.

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Uncle Dave, do you like Dave’s shirt?  He loves the solar system and deep space just like you.  And he harvested his first carrot from the garden.  He could hardly wait for me to take the picture before he ate it.
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The best thing happened.  My dear forever friend Christie came for an overnight visit on her way to Canada.  I love her so much, we’ve been friends for 15 years!  We hadn’t seen each other in six years but we have kept in constant contact.

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This is her daughter with my Sarah.

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The kids were looking for fishing bait this morning and found this mama spider.  Do you see all the little babies she is carrying on her back?  Emily brought me to the rock they found her under.  Emily was scared, she said the spider knows what she looks like and will come to find her.  But I was thankful she was brave enough to show me.  There was a bright orange slug next to it.  Visiting?  Or about to become dinner?

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This photo was taken at 10 o’clock this morning right before Christie left with her three children.  Oh it was just so good to catch up with them.

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As soon as we waved them out of sight I went back to see the spider again.  (morbid curiosity) and guess what????  The slug was completely gone and there was another spider there.  I’m assuming it is the baby-daddy.  Caleb said to me, “If it bites me you better take me straight to the doctor’s.”  We came away unscathed.

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There was another happy couple on a Queen Anne’s lace flower.

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Little gifts from my friend.  Maple Syrup from Michigan, tea, and irresistible chocolate biscuits from Australia (she wrote an amazing blog about her experience living there).  She also gave me the dangly earrings in picture #3.

 

blessings all mine, with ten thousand beside

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For the beauty of the earth
for the glory of the skies
for the love that from our birth
over and around us lies
Lord of all to Thee we raise
this our song of grateful praise.

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Seth caught two tiny fish, and by tiny I mean approximately one centimeter and as thin as a wire.  One for him and one for his sister.  Sarah’s face says “oh, it’s so cute!!!” –painfully cute.  She loves babies.

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Good morning my friends.  Today is Monday.  It’s sunny outside and I just got home from taking my oldest daughter to her babysitting job.

My babies are six and five years old and are currently watching “The Boxcar Children” on netflix.  The rabbit is in the living room in her cage and Parker the dog is staring at the children as they eat breakfast…bread and cheese, blueberries and milk.  A breakfast inspired by their favorite story.

We finished reading the book on Saturday.

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I took three pages of notes at Bible study on Thursday, given by a dear older woman of faith who recently lost her beloved grown daughter.  Her heart spoke and filled my own heart and soul so that the tears flowed…..I read over her words in my journal and find so much truth and so much Jesus in them.

I thank God for her, please pray for His grace to continue to fill her as she grieves.

With her reminder, I kept an open heart and said “yes” to my husband more than usual this weekend.

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“I need fruit.  Do you want to go to Costco with me?”  yes
“Shan.  Let’s sneak down to the diner for breakfast together.”  yes

Those were two times I would have typically said “no”.  Costco is too far for fruit.  I’m too tired and just woke up and am not hungry enough for breakfast just yet.

Putting aside the excuses and selfishness meant more fun and closeness with this man of mine.

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My 17 year old’s morning hair.

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We went to the diner two times this weekend.  These are the times I will always remember.  When the children are grown and gone and we go to the diner again we will think of them always.  The laughter, teasing, spills, eyes too big for the tummies.

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The chicks have turned into chickens.

We spent several hours outside on the lawn Saturday afternoon.  With blankets, books, and towels we rested in the glorious sun…Rich and I…and whatever children came along.

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Samantha-Cat caught a frog.  I held it in my hand & it’s little body pressed anxiously into my palm.  I checked it all over and there were no mortal wounds — so back into the pond it went.

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The pretty-pretty beans are close to producing.  I’ve finally found little white flowers in the vines.  We’ve been eating peas and watching the watermelon grow bigger every day.  Tomatoes are beginning to ripen and sunflowers growing tall.