another summer day

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Currently, Caleb and Seth are playing with the dog.  Sarah is pretending to be “an angel wolf named Angel but she doesn’t have any wings.”  Grace is getting ready for the dentist.

I woke up this morning at 6:30 and couldn’t sleep anymore.  I quietly opened the door to our bedroom and saw that there were no teenage boys sleeping on the couch.  How nice it was to be the first one up.  (Rich had already left for work).  I got out the thick yellow “Life is Good” mug and made a cup of coffee, ignoring the very messy kitchen.

I went outside with my cup.  One of the things I love to do is walk around looking at my gardens.

This summer has been such a joy.  I think I’ve mentioned this before, but with Sarah now five, my body has been free from the demands of pregnancy and nursing for 3 1/2 years now.  I feel better than I have in almost 20 years!  I loved being a mom of preschoolers so much and God’s grace has always been abundantly enough for that stage of life, but I’m still honestly thrilled to be moving out of those years….enjoying the seven children I have….and having a little extra time these days to enjoy other things, as well.

Nothing important, really, just quiet simple living.  Gardening, reading to myself and the kids, spending time with friends and family, learning more and more about Jesus and His life-freeing ways, stumbling along daily in need of His grace….free from guilt and condemnation.  Yes, it’s been a wonderful summer.

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My friend Alyssa is so good about joining her children in their activities and fun.  I thought of her when I went swimming in the pond yesterday.  Why don’t I jump in more often?  It’s not that I don’t like ponds….it’s just that I guess as MOM I feel like I’m better off on the sidelines as Watcher of the Children.  Of course, I’m not really the athletic type, either.  I’m just not.  I don’t like running or spending time deliberately exercising.  The only sport I ever really loved was gymnastics.  So I do continue to turn those cartwheels.  But I really do admire my running friends!  (and husband)

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The water was like bathwater on top.  I swam along the top of the water, noticing the little water bugs skimming along on their magic legs, smelling that pond smell that will always remind me of my childhood.

*A Little Walk*

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It was an Evening of Toads….during our walk we saw about 10 of them, all in various sizes.  The spring away quickly, making us laugh, but we always catch them and say hello.

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all those bare feet

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Pictures I Took This Morning While Drinking my Coffee

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I love this spot in my flower beds, especially the morning glories which are now in bloom just underneath the sunflowers.

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I’ve never grown a watermelon before.  It gets bigger every day, we (the whole family) love to look at it.  Pat it like a baby.  It’s going to be strange to eat it later on this summer.

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ANOTHER!

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basil

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Seth woke up.  And then I had a friend to walk with.

Together, we thought about how the older kids were going to camp soon, and the funny ways of our dear departed Billy-Cat, and then we saw our cat Sam.  We thought about church and I told him why I love to go.  (because I love to be around people who love Jesus just like I do)  He doesn’t like church because it’s too long.  We watered some of my plants together, made up silly songs, and he let me join him on the swing.  We saw a spider and watched it work on it’s web.  I thought of knitting needles and zip lining but the spider is an expert.

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Baby boy was holding a cat.  He said he’s not a baby.  But I said he was my baby.  “I’m not your baby anymore.”  Suddenly I felt like writing a sad country song.  I’m sure it would be a big hit.

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“Don’t wish me happiness.  I don’t expect to be happy all the time……it’s gotten beyond that somehow.  Wish me courage and strength and a sense of humor.  I will need them all.”  Anne Morrow Lindbergh

 

 

baccalaureate service

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I am this sentimental about all seven of my babies, mark my words, but as this is the Week of Jacob, he is constantly on my mind.

I spent hours and hours at the end of our first hand-me-down couch with my first born baby.   I remember those hours like they were yesterday.  Most of the time he had my undivided attention, but sometimes I would watch TV as I held him.  Other times I would read a book.  There was very often a cat snuggled with us.  We were cuddled under a quilt made by my husband’s grandmother and I would put a glass of water up on the top of the couch.  All day long, whenever it was time to eat, we were there, no hurries, no worries.  In the evenings my husband sat with us, too.

He was born the very last day of 1996 and we had one solitary year together before his beautiful baby brother joined us.  Everything our baby did was amazing to us, my husband and I were both so proud.  As he said recently, every parent thinks their child is someone extra special and it is the same for us.  What a cherished gift children are and worthy to be given everything they need to grow and learn.

My friends and I used to remind each other now and then about how quickly our children would grow and leave us.  Those crazy days when we had a bunch of little ones, healthy, busy, impossible to predict, we were exhausted trying to keep up.  “Soon they will be gone” was our mantra to get us through those days but we said it with a laugh because it still seemed so far off.

We had plenty of time.

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Last night at 5:30, the family–all 10 of us–were dressed up and in the vehicle, driving to the little league field to drop off Caleb for a game, and then heading for the Holy Trinity Lutheran Church in town for the Senior Baccalaureate Service of Evening Prayer.

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I sat on the end so I could lean over into the aisle…all the better to see our boy.  Although their handsome Dad did his best to keep them in their seats, by the last hymn my two youngest were hanging off my back.  Sarah’s soft hands holding my arm, Seth twirling my pony tail.

Our Jacob was one of the students selected to read Scripture.

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“And this is my prayer:  that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless until the day of Christ, filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ-to the glory and praise of God.”  Philippians 1:9-11

The service had a special meaning for me personally because I have chosen the word “light” as my word of the year and it was the theme of the service.  In fact, as we opened with Versicles, the whole room was saying these words together:

Jesus Christ is the light of the world,
The light no darkness can overcome.
Stay with us, Lord, for it is evening,
And the day is almost over.
For with you is the fountain of life,
And in your light we see light.

It touched me to the depths of my soul.  Thank you, Jesus.

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Do you remember that part in the movie “Anne of Avonlea” when Diana is about to get married and Mrs Barry is carrying on because she’s “losing her firstborn forever”.  Aunt Josephine, in her typical bluntly comforting way quickly says, “Don’t get all sentimental, you still have Minnie May”…..that’s what I think of when I see this  picture of me and my Minnie-Sarah.

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After the service we all went downstairs for refreshments.  Seth, the one who is just victoriously finishing up Kindergarten, had two buttered rolls, bypassed the pasta and salad, and then ate four cupcakes.  The people of the church were all so kind and thoughtful, and happy to serve the community and class of 2015 in this way.

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“You’ve been a blessing from the start,
I love you, my son, with all my heart.”

So thankful for these wonderful, priceless moments!

 

the backpack

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I’ve been enjoying the gardens this spring, more than I ever have.  I think it’s because for the first time in almost 2o years I don’t have any children younger than five years old.  Although with Seth in my life it is still questionable whether I should turn my back on him…for the most part the children can be trusted to play while I lose myself in the garden for brief periods of time.

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I want to fill the house with vases of lilacs.

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This is six year old Seth in the stream, peering into the pipe that allows the water to run under the road near our house.  He was looking for snake skin.  It is common knowledge to the boys that the local snakes use these pipes to pull dead skins off themselves.  He counted six of them but after reaching one, he would not get the rest because he also saw a spider.

This morning Seth had a hard time waking up and getting motivated for a day of Kindergarten.  He tried the typical “I don’t feel good” but I wasn’t falling for it.  I put together his backpack and was quite pleased that I made him a nice lunch and remembered to put the strawberries in his bag for tomorrow’s event.  I hung his bag on the doorknob right where he could grab it on his way to the bus.  20 minutes later the bus came…..and what in the??? no backpack to be found–was I going crazy?….I started running around the kitchen as the bus sat and waited.   “WHERE is your backpack?”  “I don’t know!”  “I’ll bring it to you when I find it!” Seth looked at me in shock when I (GENTLY) pushed him out the door.  He couldn’t believe that he had to go to school without it.  It took some persuading to get him on the bus.

I found the backpack LOCKED IN THE BATHROOM.

I had to drive it to school.

When he gets home I am going to have to talk to him about problem solving, creative thinking, telling the truth,  responsibility, and the fact that the little trust I had in him is now damaged.

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Anyway, back to the snakes.  After pocketing the one snake skin that he was able to reach from the pipe, and the two of us talking a lot about how a snake takes it’s skin off like that and whether humans also shed skin (hard to explain), we entered the field not far from our house.  I was on a quest to see if the wild rose bush was in bloom.

 

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The wild rose bush was neatly clipped off at the end of each branch (deer?) with no buds to be seen on it (so disappointing) but we did find some wild strawberries.

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Little ruby treasures.

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There was spit everywhere…..inside of the spit there are little spit bugs to be found…

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….they look like this.

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water reflections in our pond

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the daisies are in bloom

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There was a nest was nearby and he did his best to keep me away from it by constant chirping.

This morning I have a cold, Sarah is coughing up a storm, and Ethan is home from school feeling wretched.  The entire outdoors is in gloomy suspended animation as we wait and wonder if it will rain.  A cool breeze blows through now and then, causing the wind chimes to flutter and play it’s notes.

“He satisfies the longing soul, and the hungry soul he fills with good things.”  Psalm 107:9  

 

 

 

you are my sonshine

Jacob Senior Pic

In a month he will be a HS graduate.

He is a born again Believer, a natural leader, calm, easy going, sincere, strong, glad-hearted, friendly.

I remember him getting into trouble as a small thing in Kindergarten or first grade because he would not.stop.humming.songs during class time.

Yesterday I was smiling all over the house as he took a long shower after school, he was singing with such gusto up there in the bathroom.

Always has music in his heart.

He is on my mind a lot lately because he is my firstborn, he is 18, he is at the end of his childhood days and about to begin the rest of his life on his own….be his own man, make his own decisions, and hopefully do his own laundry, cooking, and cleaning, too.

He and Emily are a sweet loving couple.  I wonder what the future holds for them?  They already speak of marriage.  They get along so well, it’s the best thing in the world to watch them together.  (He reads books to her!) If I find a love note on his bedside table I read it and wipe away little tears.

He is all set to attend a community college in the fall.

He still loves to talk to me and his Dad all about his experiences.  Last Friday was his Senior picnic and he had a grand time all day long….rock climbing, playing football, eating lots of food, all free “I only had to pay 20 dollars!” at a wonderful park in Connecticut.

When he talks to me I see glimpses of his baby face within the man’s.

Oh what it is to be a mother.  I never really knew.  I dare say I still have no idea how much my heart can take.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding.  In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.”  Proverbs 3:5-6

jacob and emily got engaged again! (*not really*)

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Ah, young love in the springtime, is there anything better?

We were all outside and I was reading my book when Emily ran up to me all excited.   Jacob proposed to her!  This is his second proposal.  The first one took place at the mall with a peach ring candy!

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Don’t you agree that this ring is much better than a peach ring (which Emily ate)?

Jacob found it embedded in the mud outside on the lawn!  Hard to believe, right?

It’s beautiful silver, heavy and well made, with a gentle rust design.  Quite artsy.

I congratulated her over and over.

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While Jacob looked on, sheepishly.

Oh no, a sneak attack!

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Brothers are so disrespectful when it comes to ultra-romantic moments!

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Admiring their ring.

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Silly kids.

boredom buster for all ages!

I wasn’t feeling well on Saturday so Rich took all the children out for a few hours so I could rest. David stayed home with me because he loves spending Saturdays at home in his own little world of creativity and good wholesome fun that involves things like balloons, vinegar, cornstarch, food coloring, yarn, wooden Thomas the train tracks, and empty play dough buckets.

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He was so utterly interesting that I got off the couch and sat next to him on the floor.  He was attempting to catch a bird.  He’s been catching birds for about 6 years now.  He doesn’t do it on a constant basis, just when the mood strikes.  We had a lot of bird activity at the feeder on Saturday and when David stopped and noticed them,  the mood struck once again.

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I typically have a terra cotta planter on this little table, filled with sunflower seeds.  David removed the planter and put a pile of seed underneath a big play dough bucket.  He propped up the bucket with a train track and tied a long piece of yarn to it.

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The little table with the bird seed is only about five feet from the side entry way door.  The storm door is full length glass so David ran the yarn under the door and sat right on the other side of it with the end of the string in his hands, which were charmingly dirty from other experiments.

I sat next to him with my camera and a piece of paper to jot down his quotable quotes.  Everything he said made me laugh.

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This chickadee landed on the track and knocked it over, causing a loud groan from Dave.

He went out to set things in order again.

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Whenever there was a “misfire” he would go out loudly apologizing to the birds.  “Everything is okay….that was supposed to happen!”  He wanted to make it clear to the bird community that there was nothing to get suspicious about.

“I love to do this,” he told me as he settled back down with the string in his hands.

He had to get up to brush the seeds completely UNDER the bucket because they were choosing seeds that were in safer locations……”Now they’re dedicated to go all the way under there.”

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He was very patient.  Much more than I.  A bird would come and I would say, “Why didn’t you pull the string?”

“I couldn’t!  It wasn’t all the way under.  I don’t want the edge to come down on the bird’s neck and break it!”

Hearing this piece of wisdom made it easy to bring the conversation around to the subject of the guillotine.  “What’s that?”  He asked, with his eyes on the bucket.  “When you lay down and they let the sharp metal fall on your neck.”  “Oh yeah.  I hate those!”  I laughed, imagining that this hatred was typical of the whole of humanity.

He was also very careful because if he killed one right in plain sight of the other birds they would never come back around to the feeder, he said.

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After another miss, he sat down and immediately another bird came around.  He was astonished.  “Mom, look at this.  Stupid birds, they go right back.  Fool birds.  That’s what I call them.  Fool Birds.”

“I have to wait for one to stall, then I’ll get it.”

“I love to do this.”  He was all smiles.  “It’s like fishing, hunting, and trapping.”

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He caught one.

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He took a clipboard (you could also use cardboard or whatever) to put on top of the bucket.  He wasn’t planning on holding it but I encouraged him.  He was shaking a little as he tried to gently catch it in his hand.

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“He is the hero of the woods; there are courage and good nature enough in that compact little body, which you may hide in your fist…….”  Ernest Ingersoll

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“Thus it is, that in all the lands of snowy winters the chickadee is a loved comrade of the country wayfarer; that happy song ‘chick-a-dee-dee-dee’ finds its way to the dullest consciousness and the most callous heart.”  Anna Comstock

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The little chickadee was a brave fighter.  He bit Dave’s thumb and held on tight.

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I got to hold it, too, and then we let it fly away.  He caught three that day.

Now that you know how Dave catches birds, you can try it too!  Let us know how it goes.  It’s a great activity for anyone, old or young.

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This morning I found Dave peeling a balloon off of a big ball of ice.  He had made a water balloon and put it in the freezer over night.  He was surrounded by siblings as he peeled it.  It wasn’t frozen all the way, so he trotted it back to the freezer……