I’ve not been feeling like myself…..I think things have been escalating to point of an almost break-down. This weekend was tough…..on Sunday I had stirred myself up to a frenzy … feeling sick, overwhelmed, spinning in circles, feeling like every little thing was going wrong all day long. We couldn’t go to church because most of the family was sick and Seth was miserable. I had been pouring myself out to serve my family and feeling selfish about it, then guilty because I very much just needed a break—(I would eagerly await bedtime, but at night my mind would spin and I had all this energy and couldn’t sleep.) On Sunday afternoon I decided to leave for awhile, got out the door, decided not to go, went back in the house to my room, then decided to go again. That shows how crazy I got! I cried all the way to the bookstore.
After some browsing around and a cup of hot chocolate, I was feeling somewhat calmer and I went to the mall to say hi to my sister (she works there) and to pick up some more children’s Motrin at Target. It was good to see Amanda, and I met her again briefly after I was done shopping. She was just leaving work and we walked out together.
Getting out of the house ALONE, for a breather, helped get me through the weekend. I’m also trying to take better care of myself, confess my selfishness and controlling tendancies to God, pray a lot, take vitamins, drink water and milk, and think positive.
Yesterday David came down with the stomach bug so I had to cancel music lessons and I cancelled another appointment that we had for today. It’s been nice not to have to rush everyone out the door for things.
It’s been a challenge caring for sick children (for the last 2 weeks we’ve been sick) but we are coming out of it now, I think. Most importantly, I am feeling much more hopeful today.
Random pictures from the last 2 days:
So yesterday, I was feeling pretty blue and decided I needed to wear some color to offset the mood. It seriously helped!
Caleb and Grace bounced Sarah on the bed.
She loved it. Yes, those are Caleb’s happy feet.
But, as usual, things started getting a little out of hand and I had to put a stop to it.
Sarah fell down the steps yesterday. The children took her upstairs and promptly forgot about her. It only took a second and down she came. It was not a good moment for us (I was particularly upset b/c I had JUST told J to bring her to me but he insisted she liked being with them), thankfully she is okay. She has quite the busy life with all her big siblings to entertain her.
Jacob took these pictures of Sarah and the toothbrush. It gives a good example of the things that go on around here, and how diseases spread. Seth was up no good, getting a chair to help himself to the refrigerator, a habit that I am now in the process of putting a complete end to.
And Sarah had found a treasure to chew.
Oh how yummy!
Jacob thought her facial expression was so funny in this one that he showed it to me as soon as he took it.
Seth came along to help her learn how to use it. No matter that she has no teeth.
Hmmmmmm, she needs more information.
“Like this.” “Oh, I see. Fascinating!”
“Now you try.”
Caleb, Grace, and I played this game together yesterday. We enjoy the detailed, colorful pictures on it.
Caleb likes to do this with Sarah and it’s adorable how she looks up up up at him adoringly.
Seth was quite precious this morning. I heard him make a sound “OHHHHH!” –just like he had just seen an exquisite, beautiful ROSE.
I turned around to look at what he was admiring and discovered,
the car battery charger.
Caleb took Seth and Sarah and covered himself and the two of them up with his blanket. It was like a little cave under there.
I imagine that when the children play like this they are making wonderful memories. I certainly remember doing things like this when I was little! It’s magical, child play.
Boy, Caleb has been busy…. he has also started giving Seth and Sarah rides in the stroller (thanks to redladybug’s suggestion!) to keep them out of trouble.
Sarah in the morning sunshine, sitting on her blanket.
Some of the best books to read out loud…..A.A. Milne understands.
David was yellow- sick last night and he was all bundled and covered up for bed, on the couch. I read to him for a while out of these books and he quieted down for a cozy time with his mama.
I love my eight year old boy.
He rested against me and listened. Today I found him quietly reading them for himself.
He said, “Mom, I love how they drew Pooh for this book. He’s SO CUTE!”
This is one of the poems that make me feel as though they were written just for me, and for my boys;
“I’m fishing. Don’t talk, anybody, don’t come near! Can’t you see that the fish might hear? He thinks I’m playing with a bit of string…he doesn’t know I’m fishing.”
My Davy fishes just like that. I’ve caught him at it before, lots of times, in our ponds.
So when I read it, I get tears in my eyes.
And that’s a little bit of what we’ve been up to.