when I taste your goodness, I shall not want

“Though the fig tree may not blossom,
nor fruit be on the vines;
though the labor of the olive may fail,
and the fields yield no food;
though the flock be cut off from the fold,
and there be no herd in the stalls–
yet I will rejoice in my Lord,
I will joy in the God of my salvation.”
Habakkuk 3:17-18

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.  And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.”  Philippians 4:4-6

“Peace is what I leave with you; it is my own peace that I give you.  I do not give it as the world does.  Do not be worried and upset; do not be afraid.”  John 14:27

“But now, this is what the Lord says…Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine.”  Isaiah 43:1

“….Do not be terrified, do not be discouraged; for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”  Joshua 1:9

“Tell everyone who is discouraged, Be strong and don’t be afraid!  God is coming to your rescue.”  Isaiah 35:4

“He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, ‘Quiet!  Be still!’ Then the wind died down and it was completely calm.”  Mark 4:39  (He does this to the storms in our souls, too)

Unless the Lord has judged our fears to be a great evil, He would not so often have forbidden them, or have prepared such a heavenly quietus for them.  Charles Spurgeon

“Permit me to say there is nothing in the Bible to make any man fear who puts his trust in Jesus.  Nothing in the Bible did I say?  There is nothing in heaven, nothing on earth, nothing in hell, that need make you fear who trust in Jesus.”  Spurgeon

“The Lord may be very close to thee, dear child, when thou canst not see Him, perhaps closer than ever he was when thou couldst see Him.  The presence of God is not to be measured by the realization of it.”  Spurgeon

“The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world.  On the contrary, the weapons we fight with have divine power to demolish strongholds.  We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.”  2 Corinthians 10:4-5

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You see, dear friends, I have a daily struggle with anxiety and have very unwisely held on to fears and allowed them to grow.  I have allowed exhaustion to grow, too, until life itself seemed too much to bear.  And indeed, it was too much to bear.  How very thankful I am for Mother, who called me during her work day to simply listen to me cry and cry and talk it all out, and the wisdom she spoke to me.   “You’re exhausted.  You need to rest.  Don’t do anything during your free times but rest.  And then when quiet time is over, get up and bake something for your family.”

I am ashamed of my weakness when I think of many others in the past and present that have a life much more difficult than mine.  But the truth is, God is almost certainly going to gently allow EACH ONE OF US to sink to our lowest, our breaking point, to show us the comfort and delights to be found in Himself.  No matter what your life situation, there will be times of difficulty, and if you are a believer and a lover of Jesus, it is during those times when you will find yourself on your knees and know that your faith is not in vain.  It is a true faith, a simple childlike faith, in a God so big and loving that it truly does bring a peace that passes all understanding.

I pray my most desperate prayers in the bathroom.  I lock the door and turn on the ventilation fan so no one can hear me, and I kneel down by the bathtub and pray.  I tell Jesus exactly what is making me fearful or anxious.  I tell Him that I cannot control the anxiety and that I need Him to take over and do the work inside of me.  I tell Him of the verses I know that command me not to worry and that I trust Him.  How grateful I am when I pray it all out and find my spirit restored once again.  It truly does work, and not because of anything I have done, but because of Christ and His provision.

It’s been AMAZING.

AMAZING.

In between the prayer times, life has been relatively peaceful again…..true, the children are all getting sick over and over….but, ONLY BECAUSE I’m learning to let go and get through it the best I can without freaking out inside!!!  Life is not an emergency.

I’m trying to be more like my cat.

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Grace and Jenna taking tickets at the play we went to a few weeks ago.

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David

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Jacob and David, I think they were playing smashy road….Dave is using my phone.

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“This home is a shelter for those we hold dear, wishing peace to all who enter here.”

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David followed a youtube instructional video last night and made gummy candy out of jello.

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Here it is before he cut it.

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Sarah’s library book which was not intended for the highly observant child (the kittens were slightly different throughout the book but supposed to be the same three and she kept asking me who was who.)

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I colored her hair slightly with hair chalk, as per her request.  There is a small green streak on the left and a small purple streak on the right.

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Seth showed me his tricks while waiting for the bus.  He was kicking the football and then trying to catch it with one hand.   Hilarious

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Thank you for the beautiful plants, Amy!!!!

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If you’re anxious about anything today, find a quiet time to pray and let your burdens go to His capable hands.  Jesus is more than conqueror of all our fears and no one understands what men and women go through like He does.  We all have such unique and challenging lives, but in Him we can live them peacefully and calmly, with thanksgiving.  He will take those worries and destroy them!

And gosh darn it, slow down and get your rest.

Eat properly, too.

Drink water.

Get some sunshine.

Onward and upward.

You are loved.

7 thoughts on “when I taste your goodness, I shall not want

  1. A true breath of fresh air that was much needed in my life. Thank you for ALL the reminders. God is good. Much love and peace to you.

  2. Thankyou for this. I know exactly what you are taking about. I too am learning to trust God and step forward in faith with my anxiety.Your mom has wise words. I’m so glad Jesus knows us and loves us unconditionally. I’m praying for you. You are not alone. Hugs, christina

  3. So glad that God can see our need. He is so pleased when we come to him. The Bible study this week was talking about the pleasure the Lord takes when we are being who He created us to be. So freeing. You are such a wonderful homemaker, and do have your hands full! So glad you have loved ones that see you need that rest and tell you. I’ve been thinking of you and praying. Lots of love, Jenny
    Loved all the verses!

  4. Your words are a true comfort. Thanks for the peek through your lens. It is truly an encouragement for a weary mama, who got mixed up and forgot that she was hosting homeschool co op at her house this morning for 15 plus people and had 10 minutes to get a sitter and wing it despite the mess and find enough chairs and teach a lesson where we made soup mix in a jar christmas craft/gift. Shew!!! Then when my boy came home from the sitter he was sick- puking. All over me.
    I am writing down your prayer and am going to go sit down and speak those words to my heavenly father and prince of peace!
    I recently saw War Room. Seen it yet? I was inspired to make an intentional space for my prayer and to help remind me to do it and ask for peace. I have no closet, but a chair next to the bedside table looking out the window with Bible open and ready and a journal works for me. I can shut the door and be with Him. It is a bad day when I don’t.
    I’m taking your advice, Shanda and Looking up with you!
    Honesty here.
    Hugs

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