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Rich got home safely at about 1:00am last night.  Thankfully, He did get to stay home later in this morning (until about 7:30) so that he could see all of the children when they woke up.  Grace almost missed him, but came out on the porch just as he was getting into his vehicle to leave for work.  He saw her and got right back out, to give her a kiss as she leaned over the porch railing.  So sweet.

I’m feeling more tired than usual today and got grumpy this morning.  I outright yelled at Jacob.  The dog was barking and when I told him to go walk him, he complained, “I already walked him this morning” (meaning, “Ask Ethan, it’s HIS turn”).  Well, I can’t keep track of who does what and I got mad and yelled, “I DON’T CARE JUST DO IT!”  and dear mom in law was cleaning up in the kitchen and heard it.  Oh, I’m laughing about it now, but I was embarrassed at myself when it happened.  I also lost it with Caleb when he shot Grandma in the back with his nerf gun.  I spoke sternly to him, “DO NOT SHOOT PEOPLE ESPECIALLY NOT GRANDMA….OR MAMA!” and took the gun away.

Grandma said, “Are you tired, Shanda?”, gently, and I said, “I’m not feeling well this morning.”  I felt tired, weak, and shaky.

So she left (they already had plans to go out) with the children at 10, to go to the library with them and I stayed home.  It’s about 2 now.  I watched TV and read my book, and took a little nap.

I’m hoping and praying that when Rich gets home I’ll be sweet and calm again because TONIGHT IS WHEN WE LEAVE FOR OUR WEEKEND AWAY.  He called me not long ago, to tell me that he is looking forward to it.  Poor guy, he’s been living out of a suitcase all week but this will be different because I will be with him.

Can I just say, I CANNOT WAIT TO HAVE THIS BABY.  Sometimes I feel so impatient about it.  4-6 weeks seems like forever at the moment.  All women who have had babies know exactly what I am talking about here.  Not only am I tired of being round, I am also not looking forward to the labor and delivery.  at.  all.  I think about all of my other six experiences and just don’t wanna do it.  I feel like a rebel 2 year old that wants to refuse to do what she has to do.  Ha.  Thankfully, I know the Lord will give me grace to be strong when I have to be.  Please Lord, don’t let it hurt. 

 

I found this picture in my files the other day and it made me laugh.  It’s Seth, last year at this time.  He was placed into sister’s doll carrier.

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We have the gift of today, and there’s no sense in fretting about childbirth.  The family just got home so I think I’ll go see what everyone picked out at the library.  I sure missed going this time! 

Then I’m going to pack and I’m going to dress nice and I’m going to be confident and sexy even though I don’t FEEL it at the moment!  Jewelry, perfume, pretty sandels, my nicest maternity clothes, smiles, and even some make-up.  Stay tuned for the report on Monday.  I’ll share everything I tastefully can. 

Have a great weekend!  (hugs)  ~Shanda

 

 

 

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  2. ❤ those last handfull of weeks are the hardest. Much too soon, it’ll be time to have the baby, then bring her home, then send her off to college. Just relax and enjoy each day.

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  3. Hey Shan…It’s going to be a wonderful weekend for you and Rich, I just know it. There is no condemnation for those in Christ Jesus, do not be down on yourself at all. We all have our moments of frustration. Enjoy your weekend and relax. 🙂 I can’t wait to hear about it when you get back!!

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  6. I missed your blog and am happy to see a new post up!  That picture is adorable!Very sweet how Rich got back out to kiss his daughter!Isn’t it wonderful to have the weekend to look forward to?

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  7. Aw, Seth has always been the most adorable little boy EVER!That paragraph where you described your feelings about childbirth…my feelings EXACTLY! I am nervous and even scared about it and afterward, especially since my mom can’t come until weeks later this time. YOU have a wonderful weekend! I can’t tell you how thrilled I am for you and Rich; what a rare treat! ❤

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  10. Shanda~ I think I have felt exactly the way you described every baby (we have 9). You’d think I’d learn to rest in the Lord :-/ Anyway, many years ago, wait that makes me sound old, 4 or 5 babies ago, there that sounds better I asked the Lord during birth to take the worst part of my pain away. You know – the height of the contraction. And do you know what….. HE DID! Each and every contraction he never let me bear the unbearable – even in transition! I still had the building up but never the really bad parts. Since then I’ve done it with every baby and it’s worked every single time. If God could do it for me I know He can do it for you, just ask. Plus it seemed like whatever I worried about during my pregnancy God would answer my fears – so I never even needed to worry. Have you read my birth story about our “road side” delivery. I am still amazed that God is all the detail of my life, even the little ones like “where am I going to give birth to this baby?”If you’d like to read it just go to our blog and type in “Gaela’s Birth Story” and then scroll down a bit and you’ll find it. Well we’re off to a track meet for our oldest son (at home) and hoping it doesn’t rain on us Tell you mil she’s an angel!!hugs~ Cinnamon

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  13. Have a wonderful weekend! I know you are adorable to your man. That pic of Seth is so funny. Ugh, the last weeks of pregnancy are difficult. Continuing to pray for you.

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  15. Oh goody! You’re going away! I can relate! My Rich and I are going away, too! 30th anniversary. It’ll be so nice to be just the two of us; I love my family to death but. We need this! I hope you come back rejuvenated! Hugs..

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  20. Too cute.  I had a yelling moment each day, if that makes you feel any better.  🙂  I hope you have fun.  Thanks for your note and for the encouragement.  Our little boy just came up to me and looked at me in mischeif/twinkly in his eye (I couldn’t tell) and then inched his way into my lap.  That lasted 3 seconds, then he got down and then peeked around the corner with that something in his eye.  Love you, Lish

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  23. Shanda, i hope that you and Rich are able to enjoy this special weekend together. I pray that it is a blessed time for you both and that you are able to talk through some of the stuff that you are thinking of concernng having Sarah and that it will be something that you can share and learn together. I pray that this time is a blessed time for the kids as well as they get to hang out with Grandma and her girls 😉

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  25. Hi Shanda How many siblings does your husband have? A very important lesson I learned about when I’d ‘lose it’ with my kids, was the thing they remembered the most, was whether or not I apologized for my actions. This point became ever so clear when menopause hit like exploding bricks. There were times I caught myself coming all unglued over something, which true, was something, but no where’s near the something I was making it out to be. Often I’d just excuse myself and go to my room for awhile till I had cooled off, and later I would apologize. On a few different occasions, my guys commented about my ‘grounding myself’ and things such as “at least you admit it when your wrong, unlike ….”.  My computer is 8 years old and due to how much memory newer programs use to operate, she is a slow old thing. Poor dear. Any-ways, as I was waiting for your site to download the whole way, I was again looking at the picture at the top of your kids and something really struck me – child #1 and child # 4 really resemble one another! Child # 2 and child # 3 really resemble one another! And children 5 and 6 really resemble one another! Wonder which set child # 7 will resemble.Looking forward to reading about how God used this weekend of just the two of you, to reinvigorate your spirit May this week leading up to “Mother’s Day” be filled with some special heart warming mommie moments!your friend!Cheryl B.http://thebzhousethatlovebuilt.blogspot.com

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  26. don’t feel so bad about losing our temper. With that many kids running around the house, it’s insane that you’re still sane! hope you had fun during the weekend!

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