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The sun is shining through the windows this morning and the last thing Rich said to me as he drove down the road (through his open window) was, “It’s going to be a beautiful day!”  Too bad he’ll spend it all in the office and won’t be home tonight until dark.  He has had such a long week already, but we are looking forward to the three day weekend ahead.

When Rich works long hours, it takes a toll on me.  Yesterday was such a stressful day.  I’ve had a problem with the gumline next to one of my wisdom teeth since I was 9 months pregnant with Seth.  I’ve been fretting about it for months and finally, yesterday, I was able to get it looked at.  I took the children to my friend Karen’s house and went to the appointment.  The doctor numbed me up and cut away the strip of gum that was bothering me.  He said that it did not look like anything dangerous, and he told me not to worry, but I admit I will not be completely at ease until I get the biopsy results back in 10-14 days.

Our dog ran off on Tuesday and we finally located him yesterday evening….at the dog pound.  Rich is so busy that he won’t be able to get him until tomorrow. 

The children are all healthy and are enjoying the beautiful weather. 

Last night, I was so tired that all I could do when we got to bed was cry.  The pit of my stomach hurt, I felt very close to panic as my mind was spinning with so many negative thoughts, the strongest one being, “I cannot do this anymore!”  Rich had his own issues, but he pushed them aside to help me relax….finally I fell asleep, promising myself that the next day would be as slow of a day as I could possibly manage.

And now it’s morning, the start of SLOW DAY.  I am still close to tears, on edge, and so tired.  But, I have no appointments today, no plans, except to do whatever I can to enjoy the life God gave me as much as I can….my children, the beautiful weather, and HIS WORD…oh yes, that’s what I need most of all, my Bible and my journal and a good pen.

Will you pray for me today, that God would refresh this tired mama?

Thank you with much love~

Shanda

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  1. Somedays it is so difficult isn’t it?!!!  It seems after those days God always gives me a next day of just blessings…….so I am praying that for you today!!! Bless you as you walk with your children today……..

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  2. I will remember in prayers today! Being a tired Mommy can be discouraging at times. My husband works long hrs as well (has his own business) and evenings he has been busy as well, I understand the feeling you have there. Take care and I hope you find strength in God’s beauty and care today.

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  6. I so very much appreciate how honest you always are here on your blog. Sometimes, when reading “mommy blogs,” it’s easy to think I’m the only one who gets frustrated, who has days when I just want to cry, days when it’s all I can do to put one foot in front of the other. It’s always comforting to know I’m not alone, that we’re all just mortal, getting by on grace alone. And I only have *almost* two! I will be praying for you today, that God gives you peace and rest.

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  8. Praying rest and peace for you today.  Remember 2 Peter 1:3–He has given you everything you need for LIFE and godliness!  He’s so faithful, and you will make it through today in joy!  Breathe deeply the grace of God and relinquish the ideas of what is expected.  Enjoy, today, dear Shanda.  There’s light and life waiting for you!  In abundance!!!!

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  11. You are doing great! RELAX life is crazy for everyone and you are doing just fine with your children! Keep them busy with things to do give them a list of things that they can find in nature (10 to 20 items) and they I am sure would LOVE the challenge then have them write about were they found each item or have them make a poster to show Daddy what they found!!! Ideas: FERN, MAPLE LEAF, SMOOTH STONE, MOSS, FEATHER, THE LONGEST STICK, SMALLEST FLOWER (not from your garden). I am sure you can thing of more 🙂 Send them of on an adventure go along and take pictuers and turn it into a project. Have them all sit downa nd make a home made “welcome baby” card for little baby Gregory or have them send Mrs Bell or another sweet lady from our church a note with a picture! It will become hard for you to have a “bad, long, stressful day” when you know you are bringing joy to others. You have the power to “Flip your day” So What are you going to do?PS you have been missing Rich a lot latley so write him a love (a sexy one) letter and mist it with your purfume! Hope you try some of these ideas….Love ya XOXOXO~Amanda

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  13. Dear Shanda, how I can identify with the feeling of, “I cannot do this anymore!” My sweet MIL shared something with me last week that I wanted to pass on; I hope it will not sound like a “sermon” but be an encouragement to you:”Henry Blackaby writes, ‘I have come to the place in my life that, if the assignment I sense God is giving me is something that I know I can handle, I know it is probably not from God. The kind of assignments God gives in the Bible are always God-sized. They are beyond what people can do, because He wants to demonstrate His nature, His strength, His provision, and His kindness to His people and to a watching world.’When God calls us, it is God and us doing it together. We are not called just to work FOR God. We are called to work WITH God.”Shanda, I know you are convinced of your role as wife and mother as callings from God, and I know He will give you grace in time of need to fulfill your calling. It is comforting for me to remember how inadequate Moses and others felt in the Bible, yet God used them mightily. I hope you will FEEL GOD’S PRESENCE AND LOVE strongly today.Love,Angie

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  14. P.S. I am just looking at your beautiful children and sighing with happiness. That Seth is SOOOO PRECIOUS. SHANDA, THE MOTHER OF 5 SONS AND A DAUGHTER. You are a blessed woman! ❤ ❤ ❤

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  15. Love you, Shanda-girl.  And I often tell people I love, “Be Faithful!  We do not know how soon The Morning!”  And our lives hold so many “mornings” — our children learn new skills, our marriages turn an unexpected and blessed corner, we learn a new skill, we learn to let go of the things that don’t matter, etc, etc.  And so often these things happen when we least expect them, but need them most.  God is a God of incredible surprises.And even while we watch for these “mornings” after long and terrible nights, so we are (should be) consiously waiting for that eternal morning — where Mommies won’t be tired or discouraged or lonely or sick or sad.  Where we won’t need those dentists and doctors or even people to help us when the chores get overwhelming.  Heaven.  As the mommy of young children, I would sometimes worry that I didn’t think enough about it.  One day one of my older friends comforted me and said, “You have a family.  You have children to raise.  It wouldn’t be good for you to be wanting to go to Heaven with too much urgency!”  But time goes on.  Our children grow up.  People we love have the audacity to go on without us — and there are just some days when Heaven looks really, really wonderful.  Especially when we can count on all our loved ones being there, too.  This day will pass and be a part of a long forgotten past some glorious day.  And THEN we that are mommies will get a rest.  And for that, I cannot wait!  Love you and I’m praying for you.

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  17. Just bear in mind that a lot of what you are feeling are afer baby hormones and that life is really not quite as it seems right now. Just enjoy your family and the beautiful day. Hugs to you!

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  18. I have been praying for you this whole week…I am glad that you posted and will continue to lift you up to our Lord. So glad that you have a slow day planned. May it be filled with peace, rest, and joy! I am looking forward to a three day weekend too! It is so nice to have our hubby’s home!That little Seth is such a cutie!

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  21. You are in my prayers.  I pray that you will be able to squeeze in a nap for a little recharge of energy!  I can send you a starbucks latte through email Ha HaOh, by the way, I love your green sandals!

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  27. Shanda~ I am only getting to know you but you shine with love for your family. I can feel the despair that overcomes Mama’s at one time or another. I’ve felt it too. You were right on to have a slow day. That can be such a big help. Holding little ones, snuggling, laughing. I hope you found much joy today in the little things and that God renewed your peace and joy. You are so very dear to Him and so many others~
    Praying for you~ Cinnamon

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