I’m feeling insecure and nervous this morning. I’m so sick and tired of feeling this way. It’s hard to be patient sometimes.
Rich left this morning and won’t be back until Thursday.
I cried trying to help Jacob with his math. I ended up just telling him to put it away for another day. I wish I did not have to homeschool. I feel so inadequate.
Seth is napping. I got frustrated nursing him this morning because he was fussy through it. I don’t know why he does that sometimes….maybe he isn’t hungry? Maybe it’s gas? All I know is that there have been several feedings like that lately, so that I do not know what to expect when I sit down with him.
Caleb is playing out on the porch with his trains.
I just warmed up some soup and am going to go outside, hoping the sun and fresh air will revive me.
Good to be Home 
Oh Ms Shanda… I am praying for you!! Those feelings can hurt so deeply and cause so much pain – they really feel like chains around you, don’t they? But, we have to remember, that as children of the Most High GOD that those feelings are from the enemy! Satan wants us to forget who we are, and become slaves to doubt and fear! Fight him with every little thing that you have… God will give you all of the strength that you need. Hopefully the beautiful warm sunshine and fresh air will help; it always does for me!You can do it, and you are one of the most wonderful mothers that I know!! Struggling with home school doesn’t make you inadequate – we have all had those days. You are a beautiful, strong woman of God, and I know that you are a GREAT momma to your six precious little ones 🙂
My dear Shanda, I haven’t had time to leave a comment, but have been praying for you throughout the last few days. And I’ll continue to lift prayers up on your behalf! I imagine you out on the porch, warm soup in hand enjoying the sunshine and Caleb playing at your feet. Love and (((HUGS))) my friend!
We all have those frustrating moments…I know it is time to take a break from the routine when I start feeling cranky and frustrated over the schooling/housework/child-care, etc. So we usually pack things up for the day and go outside, or to the park. Nothing like some time outside to renew our spirits. Please know that I am thinking and praying for you. Love You a bunch!
I am praying for you & hoping the next few days will go smoothly for you while Rich is gone. I don’t homeschool, but I can imagine with a little baby and homeschooling you are very busy and stressed. I think taking a break from it is a great idea. Enjoy outside!!
praying for you.
Enjoy the sunshine! This morning I got up early and don’t you know,my well ordered schedule went pftt. Hang in there,I’d want to bring you supper this evening if we weren’t a couple thousand miles apart.
Psalm 146:5 Happy is he that hath the God of Jacob for his help, whose hope is in the LORD his God….John 16:24 Hitherto have ye asked nothing in my name: ask, and ye shall receive, that your joy may be full.Isaiah 30:19 For the people shall dwell in Zion at Jerusalem: thou shalt weep no more: he will be very gracious unto thee at the voice of thy cry; when he shall hear it, he will answer thee.2 Corinthians 9:8 And God is able to make all grace abound toward you; that ye, always having all sufficiency in all things, may abound to every good work….I love you!-B
I’m praying for you!
Oh Shanda, you are in my heart and prayers. I know how hard that is – you are an extremely strong woman of God. Even if satan tries to make you believe otherwise … GOD chose YOU for this role. Christ knew that you were the perfect mom for these children, wife for Rich, and caretaker of your exact home. Lean on his love always. Close you eyes and imagine Him holding you, and rocking you so sweetly – just the way you do Seth, because that is exctly what he is doing. Lots of hugs and prayers ~ Ashley
Shanda I love you and you are OK, God is right is with you tell him how you are feeling! I will be coming over tomorrow first thing in the morning and if you need help tonight I get out of work at 8pm (if you need help putting the children to bed or if you want me to stay up with Sethypooh for awhile I can) If you need to talk call me I have my phone with me…..
****TAKE MY ADVICE AND DO 1 OR 2 THINGS ON THIS LIST!
*Put on a CD, play a few hymes on the piano and sing with the children, open the windows for a few minutes, make a list of new plants you want for your garden this year, have the children all make Rich cards, (and while they are being creative you write him a love letter), stand on the porch and breath in 10 long and slow breaths, have a cup of calming tea with honey, smile you are MUCH prettier when you do! *
I love you and know I am right here I can be ther in 30mins if you need me! ~AMANDA
“In my distress I called up on the Lord and cried to Him for help. From His temple he heard my voice, and my cry to him reached His ears!” Ps. 18:6Weepy mornings are part of my life too ~ I am very inadequate to homeschool as well ~ and that’s okay. May you sense the Lord’s arms around you tight and sure this morning as you just let go and let Him.praying for you –
You are in my prayers …
Deut. 33:27a — “The eternal God is thy refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms” …
When I was struggling with something recently a dear friend gave me this verse and I found comfort in it. God has called you to this special task of being a wife, mom and homeschool mom and He will give you the strength!!!!! He loves you and cares for His children.
“Day by day and with each passing moment, Strength I find to meet my trials here.” Thinking of you and will be holding you in care and prayer. Marcialee
The Lord loves you so very much, Shanda, and so do many, many family members and friends out here. “I rest my weary soul in Thee…” You are a beautiful and strong woman, and you will emerge from this even more beautiful and strong. “He makes everything beautiful in His time…” IN HIS TIME. <3This is just a season and it will not be forever. It is a successful day if you just feed yourself and the baby. Let the house and homeschooling go. The other kids are old enough to fend for themselves. Listen, I remember many a day like this when I was growing up and my mom had a newborn, days when it seemed like nothing was getting done. However, as of a year from now, 8 of us 12 children will have graduated college (the others are too young), so those “newborn periods” didn’t do any permanent damage to our academic futures. Just let it go and take things one day at a time for now. ❤
b well soon. Bless Ya lady 🙂
(((HUGS))) — Praying this anxious time of your life passes very soon!!
Hope you got that soup and some time outside. I am thinking of you and praying for you. God loves you so much, Shanda!
“For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.” 2Timothy 1:7
“Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.” Isaiah 41:10
“Fear not: for I have redeemed thee, I have called thee by thy name; thou art mine. When thou passest through the waters, I will be with thee; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow thee: when thou walkest through the fire, thou shalt not be burned; neither shall the flame kindle upon thee.” Isaiah 43:1b,2
Give your fears and anxieties to the Lord, and REST in Him! I can completely relate to your feelings about homeschooling- I feel totally inadequate to homeschool my kids right now, too. You are doing a great job! Wish I were closer to help with everything.
Much love and hugs, Hannah
Shanda…..yours isone ofthe few blogs i feel close enough to that I will add you to my prayers!!
Your sisters suggestions are great!! Try to do them!
I’ll be thinking of you today:)
Shanda,
Do you remember when I told you months ago that little Jack was giving me a hard time with reflux issues…well it was beyond anything I have ever dealt with. I felt so angry for feeling the way I did and sad that I was not enjoying the time more with him. Most of it was just my plain exhaustion. He too was very fussy with feedings…which we found out later was because of the reflux. I wrote many posts around that time showing my desperation for things to be different. I found tons of verses that I found to be comforting. If you go over to my blog http://www.andreaandfamily.blogspot.com and look for posting from October 7th, October 6th, October 5th. I found that to be some comfort. I know you are very close to your Bible so you may have already found these to be a comfort. I just feel for you so deeply because I remember how I was just a few months ago. You are in my prayers…
Andrea
Praying for His peace. I love the list, maybe we should all do some of those things. Except writing Rich love letters of course. Hang in there and it’s okay if you let school go for a few days.
saying a prayer for you today…
i just said a prayer for you and your family.
i have those mornings..weeks..nights lol. i think its nothing but normal. i try and tell myself its God’s way of allowing us to see how we need him. i find myself on my knees in prayer a lot more after a day like that. just remember keep your chin up.. things are going to get better.
❤
Kimberly
Shanda, please don’t be so hard on yourself, you are doing the best you can and THAT is what counts. Try and carve out at least five minutes of quiet alone-time. I know it must be easier said than done and I won’t pretend to know what you are going through–I only have one:) But, what I DO know is that you are a strong, loving, compassionate mother who WILL get through this. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Shanda know that you are in our prayers. You are a wonderful mother and you will get through this. We wish we could be there to help you. Amanda’s advice sounds great, hopefully you are able to try a couple of things off the list. Keep smiling you have such a beautiful smile! We love you! Melissa
I just went through this fussy nursing stuff with Lucy. I’d love to talk to you about it. I’ll message you with my number so you can call if you want to. All my love! Praying for you right now!!!
Love you sweet Shanda and praying for you. The Lord will bring you through! Hugs to you, Jenny
Can you hold off teaching school for the next two days? Give projects to your children, instead – Today, cut out green things from magazines and have them make a collage. THEN, make them clean up their mess!!! Put in a movie for them (or two, or three, or a dozen movies, whatever it takes . . .)Listen to “Quiet Beauty” and meditate on the scriptures given to you by your other sisters in Christ. You are fatigued and that can make any of us feel insecure or nervous – or both. Your body is healing from childbirth and you have a baby to care for 24/7, besides caring for other children who are *STILL* children. No need to feel bad about yourself – everyone of us understands your feelings and we are all praying for your strength and peace of mind. Rich will be home soon. Your sister will be there to help. The troops are on their way!!!You’re such a sweet person – I really wish I could be there to hug you and occupy the older children so you could just hold Seth – whether he’s fussy or not! Any chance you are eating something that disagrees with his stomach???Hang on for a while longer and hang on to God!HUGS!!!!
Casting all your cares upon Him,
For He careth for you!
{You know, you could let Jacob call me about his math sometime, if you like. I don’t mind helping! I can’t come over, so I can offer “phone help!”}
Love and prayers!
I really hope your day has gotten better. I’m praying for you and love you. Love, Trish
I hope you are feeling better today than when you wrote this. I hope the soup and sunshine helped cheer you up a bit. ((hugs))
*hugs* You are in my prayers!
With all the replies here, you definately are loved by many. {{{{hugs}}}}
PRAYING for you my sweet Xanga friend. ((((((((HGUS)))))))
Math is easy. God plus anyone = success. “Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest.” Read this aloud and experience the joy of faith. “So faith {comes} from hearing, and hearing by the word of Christ.” Inadequate is a term reserved for unbelievers.Having homeschooled for over 15 years now, we see that God provides the increase. We get the joy of participating and observing His work.and I KNOW Rich approves and has an indefatigable love and approval for you.