I was inspired by cerwindoris this week to get my speedlight out again. I’ve been scared of it. You see, I am not the type of person who feels comfortable with electronics. . .(is a speedlight an electronic?). . .whenever I have a piece of new equipment like my camera or the speedlight, my hands start to shake and I have the manual out and I have to do everything just so, feeling all the while like I’m certainly NOT doing it right. I get all worked up about it. So the speedlight was used ONE time and then back in the box in went until today!
So thanks, Doris, for the little push that you didn’t even know you gave me!
Here are the pictures I took with it this morning:
I interrupted their Bible reading to take this one. As you can see, our map has been covered up by my china cabinet. I keep meaning to take it down. . . There is still a Christmas wreath up behind Jacob, too. I like it there. Rich did the curtain rods for me as a surprise last year when I was away for a weekend (I think it’s time for another weekend getaway, btw)
And here is David with no shirt, and Caleb is next to him. They are playing a veggietales computer game in my room. You can see a mug from yesterday’s tea, a ponytail holder from me taking out my hair. See the small calender? The picture above it is a picture of me at about 4 years old, and I am holding a cat. I love looking at little me. . .I’ve always liked kitties. The quilt you see in the bottom right hand corner is something Rich’s Grandma made. I use it to cover the printer.
(oh my –at this moment, rain is coming down HARD, dark clouds are blowing across the sky and I can hear blustery wind. . .)
Here is a picture of part of our bedroom:
I wanted to show Aunt Mary the wall hanging that I bought at her party a while ago. We hung it up over my dresser. It’s supposed to have a pillar candle in it, but instead I put these in:
This picture is for roseteacup. When I was feeling bad a few weeks ago, she encouraged me to do something creative. I had some bulbs that I never got in the ground this fall, and they were beginning to sprout in the package. I had Jacob go in the woods to get me some nice dirt (it was the week of our Jan. thaw) and planted some in containers. Now, I get to watch them grow. I wish I could tell you what these are, I think they are crocus. I also planted mini-daffodils and tulips.
Last but not least, a picture of me and Grace. I think her ripped out jeans are so so so so cute!
I’m pretty blah today. I actually spent some time this morning in tears. . .I’m stressed out with my duties. I cannot understand how women homeschool multiple children, along with being mommy to preschoolers. I feel very very overwhelmed. Lately I haven’t been able to enjoy making dinners, the past 2 days we’ve had pasta w/hamburger spaghetti sauce. The dinner dishes are always left in the sink over night. The dishwasher is constantly running, or waiting to be emptied. There is always laundry going. I went through the motions this morning, getting more and more stressed out. I cannot let the house go, I have to have it halfway decent. . . .so I spend time cleaning only to have it messy again and again. Yes, the kids help but I’m in charge, ya know? Is this the constant lament of the homeschooling mother? I was making the kids their little game cards for their “Africa” geography game this morning, feeling actual ANGER that I didn’t even know how to pronounce most of the countries! How am I supposed to know? I frankly don’t even want to know! I’ve managed to survive the first 31 years of my life without knowing all the countries in Africa!!!!!
I have sick kids this week, too. Caleb woke up this morning with a fever and runny nose. . it’s the same thing that Jacob and Ethan are getting over. But that’s the life of a mother. . .we’re nurse and housecleaner and cook and and and and. . . . .
I was standing by the kitchen table earlier, ready to blow, just standing and staring. .frozen, when all of a sudden the phone rang. It was my friend Kathy. . . . .
boy did she get an earful! It’s nice to have a friend that can listen to it all. . and that was just what I needed, to talk it out.
So. We’ve done half a day of school and now is lunch time. After lunch we will finish school. The kids are thrilled because they read in my teacher’s manual that we get to make animals out of dough!!!!!!!! We have NO DOUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can’t dash their hopes so I will be making the dough. HURRAY! Another pot to wash! LOL To say nothing of the dough animals. They’ll be hanging around for a few days, only to be tossed in the garbage.
I could go on but I won’t. . .
I need to spend a long time on my knees today. . . . .
EDIT–just want to say that the sun came out! I was so happy I yelled “look out the window!!”. . .also, I d
ecided to have some fun at some point today filling out my valentines. My party is Saturday!
Edit #2– Friends, I just had something so sweet happened! I just went to get the mail and there was a card for “Grace and Family” from a strange address. I could not believe my eyes when she opened the card! A few years ago, when we sold our previous home, we also had a litter of kittens we were desperately trying to find homes for. Grace was 6 at the time, and helped give one away. Listen to this card:
“Dear Grace and family,
I’m not sure if you remember me but I was a real estate appraiser that came to your home in 2006. I remember Grace as an amazing and persuasive child who made sure I took home a kitten named ‘Daisy’. We renamed her in honor of Grace and my daughter’s middle name. This beautiful feline has blessed our family in so many ways. My husband became gravely ill shortly after we met and that little kitten has been such a wonderful cuddle shoulder for my kids. We are all well now but I did want to thank you and let you know what an impact that day had on our family. God bless.”