Nothing went wrong today. Yet, I crashed.
I just got tired. of. everything.
Why do I even share this depressing news?
Because it’s the truth, today.
I feel like I’ve been going 100 miles an hour for years. I’m tired of working hard and fast at the same things over and over. I’m tired of making homemade soup when I could just as easily open a can. And the kids like that canned stuff better anyway.
I’m tired of adding feminine touches to my house. Who cares anyways?
I’m tired of cleaning.
Tired of training the kids.
Tired of thinking.
What to do? I thought of that quote: “When the going gets tough, the tough get going.” Guess what? Sometimes the tough spend a moment dreaming about just giving up.
After a whole afternoon of crying (and a nap), I’ve started seeing a little bit of sunshine after the storm. I won’t give up, I’ll keep going. . . . . . . .
For our conversation is in heaven;
from whence also we look for our Saviour,
the Lord Jesus Christ:
who shall change our vile body,
that it should be fashioned like unto his glorious body,
according to the working whereby He is able even
to subdue all things unto Himself.
Therefore, my brethren
dearly beloved and longed for,
my joy and my crown,
so stand fast in the Lord,
my dearly beloved.
Philippians 3:20-4:1
“Turn your eyes upon Jesus, look full in His wonderful face, and the things of earth will grow strangely dim, in the light of His glory and grace.”
And, by the way, things really weren’t quite as bad as I was thinking. My husband said the homemade soup was the best he ever had and reminded me that. . . . . “I helped you decorate the house all afternoon yesterday!” *sigh*, he’s right. 
Good to be Home 
I’ve had days like that, usually I am tired and a good night’s sleep helps LOL. (((hugs)))
I had to do me some catching up! Those last 3 posts were great! I’m sorry to hear this last one is from a tough day. BUUUUUUT, days like this make the good ones seem so much better. I went through a week where I cried all day, felt inadequate to keep up with the kids, hubby and house and dreaded going to work. I shut down. Thankfully it passed! God is faithful and soooooo good. Feel better…soon.
Sorry to hear you had a rough day. I know the feeling- wondering if all you do is appreciated or even worth it at all. As soon as I turn it all over to the Lord, though, I usually feel better because I know that what I’m doing is important, even if I don’t always receive the gratification I’m looking for. Beautiful tree photos, by the way! Have a blessed Monday~ Laurel
I’m sorry you had a rough day. (I’m glad you stayed home tonight. I should have.) As awful as this may sound, it actually makes me feel better that others have days like that, too. I’ve been having quite a few lately. I hope you’re feeling better and have have a great day tomorrow to at least partly make up for it.
I’m so glad I’m not the only one who has these days. I didn’t really think I was, but it’s good to know I’m not alone 🙂 You always come back to the positive side of things, and that’s what’s such a blessing about you. I am sure I would LOVE your homemade soup 🙂 *hugs* Love, Trish
Been there, done that. Calls for a long winter nap, cappuccino, a good book and of course, many prayers. Blessings on your day.
Thanks for writing such an honest blog entry. It’s refreshing. I hope things get better for you soon.
(((HUGS))) It’s good to share these things with others, to confess our weaknesses…and it seems everytime I do, the Lord lifts me up.
Oh, Shan’ I am so sorry to read about your blue day. I hope by the time you read this comment that you are okay.
I too found your honesty refreshing.
Homemade soup is better than canned, the kids will remember the touches you put through the house, God sees the time you invest and it pleases Him!
I’m sorry you had a rough day. We all do. Thanks for being transparent and encouraging. Sometimes people are transparent but it is just b/c they want the whole world to know how bad things are. Thanks for not just sulking to sulk!
Plus, I was just telling my friend thesillysmiths the other day that if she needs ideas for kid activities to go to your xanga! 🙂 We both think you’re supermom.
awwe. some days we just need a hug. ((((shanda)))). I’m glad that you are real. Things aren’t always merry and bright, but you turn to God who is your strength when days are tough. I love that you go the extra mile for your family and your home. God has and will bless you for it.
Hey Shanda,
It sounds like you are not alone…many of us lately have been going through what you are going through!! I am reminded of my husband’s messages the last month on Wed……. we are in a spiritual battle……and now that our church has entered into Christmas season and finding a new Pastor….the battle is getting intense…..It doesn’t have to be outward things…..alot of times it is the insides and I believe that there is alot going on….. I can name SEVERAL other ladies in our church feeling this way so rejoice! You are not alone! I read this morning in Phil.—- Rejoice in the Lord always, again I say rejoice! God is at work!!!!
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I sent you a message. I am here for you my friend. Know that you are not alone and I am praying for you always.-Tara
**sigh**
You are not alone.
Love you always!
(maybe you do want to stock up on some emergency cans of soup?)
: P
What you do on a regular basis is such a blessing and to have you share with us is even more of a blessing. God loves your sweet heart so much and all of your efforts to honor Him especially with your husband, children and home. He will give you rest and peace of mind as you continue to do what you do and look to Him, the author and finisher of your faith. Thanks for sharing….love, Evalyne
PS: Good for your hubby, the tree is so pretty and the little ones’ is so cute and precious….
I am late in responding. Bless your heart. Take comfort that all of us mothers feel that way some days. May your feel refreshed and revitalized in the Lord.
I too am late in responding but I can’t thank you enough for your honesty. I don’t like to see people have such tough days but it is incredible to know that we really do all walk through the fire at times. It makes life a little more bearable to know that I’m not alone. Thank you for redirecting to the cross of Christ. I enjoy reading your post and being encouraged and inspired. I am in a new place right now and have found very few moms to walk through this season with and so, I am incredibly thankful to the ladies that I am meeting on xanga. Thanks for being a light!!
I am late in responding too, but I can completely relate to the way you felt. I have days like that too.
(((((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))) to you my dear sister in Christ.
found your sight thru my sister’s.
brot tears to my eyes. Your entry reminded me of the Psalms. David often started out with a pity party then ended with a praise. So did you. The scripture at the end are the way to hang in there: so stand fast in the Lord, Philippians 3:20-4:1
RYC: been there done that.
May God fill you with peace….
I like your honesty too, and I can also relate to days of feeling tired.You seem like such an approachable person, and I hope that someday I can meet you IN person!
I can relate and loved reading this old post!!! thanks for sharing this side of your life too. It keeps your site in balance!